Thursday, 21 August 2008

disinterest in work

why do i find myself rather disinterested in my work these days? is it cos i am just tired and bored? or due to the fact that the course is coming to an end? or simply cos i will be leaving my organisation soon?... i really do not know. but for now, all i know is that i am getting more and more detached from my work. i really enjoy the teaching and the contact. but i simply dislike the arrows, many of which i do not support nor agree. but i think one of the key contributor to my motivation is the fact that i felt discriminated in my organisation and this feeling would be played up time and again whenever i apply for overseas leave or when i manage materials that are deemed sensitive.

damned it!

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

If you were given a choice, would you leave? Might not. Reasoning could be a good form of suppressing the mixed feelings. You have been thinking ... and the complications tire you and affect your morale.

peace said...

perhaps. perhaps. but i think the main reason might be that altho i understand the reasons, i am just so tired of the discriminatory stand the organisation has taken on plu.