Showing posts with label food. Show all posts
Showing posts with label food. Show all posts

Saturday, 20 June 2026

Grateful 18 - 20 Jun: Tired but Grateful

I am feeling very tired today and did not sleep well last night. I believe it was due to an overactive mind after a day of training preparations. So, I will keep today’s journal brief. 

Firstly, I am grateful for the slower and more relaxed pace of the last 3 days, which allowed me to complete my daily walks, prepare for my training sessions, and spend time with friends. Secondly, I am grateful for the favourable weather, which made it easy to complete my walks comfortably. Lastly, I am grateful for the mindful presence that enabled me to stay focused and complete my preparations. I also managed to help my sis edit a video. It was really gratifying to be able to learn how to do it online!

I end today feeling drained but happy, and celebrated with 2 glasses of merlot and roast meat! I sincerely hope for a restful night’s sleep without insomnia. Even on a day marked by fatigue, I am thankful for the moments of steadiness, connection, and progress that carried me through.

Friday, 19 June 2026

Bak Chang & I

Duanwu Jie (or 端午节, Dragon Boat Festival) has always been present in my family through the making of bak chang. My mother would prepare them, offer them to the gods, and share them with people who mattered to us. Although she is Peranakan, she would make the Hokkien-style savoury bak chang, shaped by my father’s and grandmother’s Hokkien background. Occasionally, she would also buy the sweet Peranakan-style nonya chang for us. I have always preferred the nonya version. My personal journey in making the chang began in 2003. I think I went through two major phases in my nonya chang making journey: an early experimentation or "fusion" phase, and a later maturation into the nonya style. What began as experimentation shaped by homesickness has, over time, grown into something grounded in memory, belonging, and continuity - and, ultimately, in how I understand my own identity.

I started making it in 2003 when I was based in Tampa. I was living in a western country, navigating life as a minority, and I remember a persistent sense of loneliness and distance from my cultural roots. Food became a way of returning to something familiar. In that space, I began experimenting with bak chang. There was no clear recipe at the start - only instinct and memory. I went to a Vietnamese grocery shop and bought the ingredients and bamboo leaves. What emerged was a version that, at times, resembled Hokkien choot bee png (fried glutinous rice) wrapped in bamboo leaves, rather than bak chang in its fully formed sense. To many of us Asians based in Tampa, however, it carried a familiar resonance of home, and it became an unexpected success among fellow Asian military personnel on base.

In the years that followed, after returning to Singapore, I began to refine the recipe through trial and error. My mother guided me in those early years, especially in emphasising the importance of coriander powder and winter melon. What emerged was a fusion version that I was rather proud of - it felt like a meeting point between my parents’ heritage: Hokkien on one side, Peranakan on the other. Yet beneath that satisfaction was a quieter pull. I had wanted to make nonya chang, but the result kept settling into something in-between. I knew the ingredient mix was not quite right but could not pinpoint exactly what. Still, I was elated that my parents, especially my mother, enjoyed what I made. I sometimes wondered whether her enjoyment was also shaped by her own Peranakan upbringing, something she had carried differently after marrying into my father’s more traditional Hokkien family.

Over time, I kept adjusting the recipe with each passing year. Each year brought small refinements, and gradually the nonya character became more distinct - the first real turning point being the removal of hae bee (dried shrimp) and an increase in coriander powder. What had once been experimentation slowly became something more intentional, as though I was uncovering rather than inventing it. I have continued this annual practice ever since, and this year I went further, making adjustments to both the ingredients and the cooking method. The filling was made more savoury; the rice given more depth with extra garlic, fresh and fried shallots; and salt added to the boiling water to prevent dilution of flavours during cooking. The outcome felt closer than ever to what I had been seeking.

Looking back, what stands out is not the technical evolution of the recipe, but the emotional thread running through it. Making nonya chang has become a quiet way of staying connected - to my heritage, my parents, and their histories. More than that, it has gradually become part of who I am.

Here's my latest recipe >> Nonya Chang 2026

Here's a quick explanation to what the festival is: >> The festival commemorates the patriot and poet Qu Yuan and celebrates the enduring values of loyalty, remembrance, and community. These days, families mark the occasion by enjoying the bak chang or rice dumplings together, watching or participating in dragon boat races, and gathering to preserve cultural traditions across generations. 

Thursday, 18 June 2026

Choot Bee Png (Glutinous Rice)


Let me capture the recipe for my choot bee png or 糯米饭(glutinous rice) here. This is the hokkien version and my mum used to cook it during the Seven Fairy Festival (that falls on the seventh day of the seventh lunar month). During this festival, she will cook this dish, sweet porridge (rice and mung bean porridge) as offerings. In addition, we will see make up powder, perfumes and 7 flowers on the altar table. And after the prayers is over, she will throw the flowers onto the roof... we don’t see it being practiced these days.

Anyway, here's the recipe for the glutinous rice:

Ingredients
2 cups of glutinous rice
80-100g of dried shrimps (more if you like stronger taste)
10-12 shallots (or 3-4 large onions) (use the purple ones or its equivalent in qty of shallots)
200g of pork belly (not too fatty unless you like pork fats)
5-8 dried shiitake mushrooms
1 - 2 chinese sausage (depending on preference)
2 tablespoon of oil (personally i prefer to use sesame oil)
dark soy sauce for colouring
light soy sauce to taste
oyster sauce to taste
dash of pepper to taste

Garnishing
fried shallots
spring onions
salted peanuts

Preparation
wash the rice and soak in water for about 1-2 hour. then drain off the water. the soaking will help the rice cook faster. wash and soak the shiitake mushrooms, cut into slices. wash the dried shrimps and drain off the water. then soak it in water for an hour. you can use the water from soaking the mushroom and the dried shrimps to cook the rice later. it makes excellent stock. cut pork belly into strips. you can boil the pork belly first before you cut it. cooked meat is much easier to cut. also, the resultant stock from boiling the pork belly can be used to cook the rice later. next, dice the shallots/ large onions.

Cooking
heat the oil in the wok. throw in the pork belly and let it fry till the pork strips turn a bit brown, then add in the chinese sausage. let them fry sufficiently to char the sausage a bit and to extract the oil from both the pork belly and sausage. throw in the diced shallots/ onions and fry till it is translucent (it should take about 1min of frying). put in the soaked dried shrimp and continue to fry for about 2min or until the fragrant emerges (this is to allow the ingredients to mix well). pour in shiitake mushrooms and let it simmer for 1 minute. pour in the glutinous rice. add the light and dark soya sauce, and pepper to taste. fry for another 1min or so to allow the rice to be fully soaked in the onion, pork, sausage, mushroom and dried shrimp mix. transfer the half cooked rice to the rice cooker. add water as necessary and let it cook in the rice cooker.

Serving
Serve the glutinous rice with the salted peanuts, fried shallots and spring onion. The dish will also go very well with chinese dried chilli oil, sambal belachan, or cut chilli depending on preferences.

Tuesday, 16 June 2026

Grateful 16 Jun: Ordinariness

Here’re a few random things that I’m thankful for:
  • Toilet bowl. More than a month ago, I discovered that my toilet bowl was leaking. I had initially wanted to replace it since it is an old model, but eventually decided to repair it myself instead. I ordered a replacement cistern ball valve online and got some cement and construction adhesive to plug the leak. After some trial and error, I finally got it repaired! Grateful that it is working again.
  • Refund. Bought a t-shirt online and it fitted me very well, so I ordered a second one. However, when it was delivered, it was two sizes bigger than what I ordered. I requested a refund and it was processed very quickly. I received my refund within a couple of minutes. Grateful for how smooth the process was.
  • Glutinous Rice. Took the opportunity to make choot bee png (glutinous rice) as I had some spare glutinous rice left over from making the nonya chang. Had initially wanted to make pulut inti but decided on this instead. It’s savoury and is a better option than pulut inti, which is a dessert. Glad it turned out so very well!  Gave a portion to my sis and to D and they enjoyed it. Grateful to D for the suggestion! 
  • Tau Sar Piah. I’ve been enjoying the traditional tau sar piah (mung bean pastry) from a particular pastry shop in Chinatown, and I’m grateful to PY for offering to buy some for me. A few days ago, she sent me a random text asking whether I would like any, as she happened to be at the shop. So, I’ve been enjoying tau sar piah for breakfast almost daily over the last few days. Yumz!
So yeah… these are some random ordinary things that I wanted to capture here. They may seem like simple little things, but to me, they reflect autonomy, self-reliance, convenience, ease, connection, culture, and much more. 

And for that, I’m grateful.

Friday, 12 June 2026

Grateful 11 & 12 Jun: Nonya Chang

Over the last 3 days, I devoted much of my time to making the nonya chang. After 2 days of cooking and tying them, I began distributing them last evening. This is the first time I have made nonya chang since my break-up in 2024. There are people in my life, especially in recent times, whom I wish to thank, and few things feel more meaningful than preparing nonya chang for them. So today, let me give thanks to: 

  • My Sisters.  As I prepared a list of people to whom I wanted to give the chang, my two sisters were right at the top. Nothing surpasses family when it comes to gratitude. I am thankful for their unwavering support, their presence in my life, and the bond we share as a family. 
  • C & K. I am deeply grateful to C and K for their support over the past year, especially C. I shall not go into the details of what happened last year, but without her help, my life today would likely have been very different. As C is currently working overseas, I was only able to pass the chang to K, her partner. K was one of the first people to visit me last year, and I appreciated her kindness and companionship during that period. I made a trip to her home yesterday evening and was delighted that she enjoyed the chang
  • D, S & V. This year, I made a special effort to thank D, S and V. I have written much about them recently, particularly D. Although I had known of D since the mid-1990s, I did not know him personally then. We moved in different circles, and our paths only properly crossed last year. Through a series of unexpected circumstances, we ended up spending a great deal of time together, sometimes meeting almost daily. I am profoundly grateful for his friendship and support during this period of my life. It was through D that I came to know S and V, one of his closest friend and her husband. They have been equally generous with their friendship and encouragement, and I wanted them to know how much I appreciate them. As it turned out, all 3 of them are fans of nonya chang
Besides the people mentioned above, I also gave the chang to M, PY and S. Preparing and sharing them was my way of expressing gratitude to the people who matter to me. In return, the joy of knowing they enjoyed them became a gift to me as well. Most importantly, sharing the chang was my way of nurturing the relationships that matter to me.

Nonya Chang 2026


It’s been 2 years since I last made the nonya chang. Decided to make it again this year as there are people I wanted to give thanks to. And I have tried some new things this year - in terms of ingredients and cooking techniques. What came out this year was probably the best for me since I started making it. So, let me use this post to update what I did for my nonya chang this year. 

Meat (Filling)
1kg of meat (wu hua rou [pork collar] or san cheng rou [pork belly] - cut into cubes about 1.5cm)
1 large packet (200g) dried shiitake mushroom (soaked & sliced)
6 large onions (diced)
6-8 garlics (roughly chopped)
300g of sweetened preserved winter melon (diced 1cm)

* I used pork belly this year. Remove and discard the skin but retain the fats; and instead of cutting into strips, I cut them into cubes. To make it easier to cut, I boiled the pork belly till it is half cooked before I cut them. I retained the broth and used it to cook the meat subsequently.

Seasonings for Meat
1/2 - 1 packet of coriander powder
200g of white rock sugar (about 4-5 pieces)
White pepper powder (for taste)
Light soya sauce (for taste)
Dark soya sauce (for taste and to colour) 
Oyster sauce (for taste)
Chicken stock concentrate/ powder (for taste)
Sesame oil
Olive oil
Lard (optional)

* I added oyster sauce this year. It turned out better than expected. Also, I used more rock sugar and winter melon than previous year in an attempt to make the meat sweeter.

Rice
2kg of glutinous rice (soaked for 2-3 hours)

Seasonings for Rice
Sesame oil
Olive oil
15 garlics & 10 shallots (blended together) 
Fried shallots
2-3 tablespoon salt (make it more salty)

* I added shallots as well as fried shallots. It made the rice more fragrant. Also, I used more salt in anticipation of the bleaching when I boil it. 

Others/ Wrapping
1 packet (400g) or about 120 bamboo leaves (washed in hot water and soaked at least 2-3 hours)
Pandan leaves (about 7, cut 5cm long and sliced vertically) & strings. This will make about 50-60 chang.

Key to note for cooking:

(1) Make the seasoning stronger than it should taste becos once it is boiled, it will become bland and the taste after that will be just right. 

(2) Boil for about 45min - 1hr and when boiling, add 1-2 tablespoon of salt into the water. It will slow down the bleaching of the chang.

Tuesday, 9 June 2026

Grateful 8 & 9 Jun: Calmer

Of late, I had felt troubled over some issues, and this was made worse by the Vesak event on Sunday. I was also frustrated by the lack of confirmation for my training, especially since it is only 2 weeks away. Over the last 2 days, I had largely spent time with friends and simply taken things easy through window shopping and going for my walks. As these 2 days come to an end, I find myself feeling much calmer. So, on this note, let me give thanks for: 

  • Confirmation of Training. On Sunday night, I decided to send an email to the training company. It was probably the third time I had followed up with them. It was unusual for them not to confirm the engagement so close to the training dates. On my part, I needed time to prepare. And this uncertainty created quite a bit of discomfort for me. I definitely did not want to invest significant time and energy in preparation if I was not eventually scheduled to deliver the programme. This morning, I finally received their confirmation. Although some admin details are still pending, the confirmation at least allows me to begin reviewing my content. I am thankful because it allows me to focus my energy purposefully on the preparation. It also means that I will have some training income next month. 
  • Catching Up. I chose not to spend too much time worrying about the training and instead invested my energy in getting out of the house and spending time with friends. After trying to review the content yesterday morning, I decided to stop as it would have been a waste of time if the training was not confirmed. So, I met D for a late lunch yesterday. It was a nice meet up indeed. And last night, PY asked to meet for breakfast today, and I readily agreed. There is no point getting flustered by the lack of confirmation. The energy is better invested meeting up with friends. It was not the food itself that mattered, but the connection. Moments like these are meaningful as time spent with friends is time well spent. I am grateful to both D and PY for making the time to meet up. 
  • A Calmer Mind. My mind had been somewhat unsettled lately. I suspect some relationship-related issues that had been weighing on me found their way into my dream. So, I am grateful that I have felt more composed over the past 2 days. Part of this came from making a deliberate decision to set these thoughts aside and not dwell on them excessively. It is not easy, but I am trying and will continue to try. Perhaps this is my way of practising what I wanted to focus on this year: embracing vulnerability with courage while extending some self-compassion to myself. I am grateful for this awareness. 
These 2 days passed by quickly. I feel much calmer now, thanks to friends, a little window shopping, and the confirmation of the training. The uncertainty has lifted somewhat, and I can move forward with greater clarity about how I can plan the days ahead.

Saturday, 6 June 2026

Grateful 6 Jun: A Well Spent Day

I felt a little feverish and had a runny nose last night, so I decided to turn in early after taking some antihistamines and Panadol. I woke up feeling sufficiently refreshed, and the day unfolded at a comfortable pace: heading out for a nice morning walk, working on my trainer profile, fulfilling my craving for cai tau kway (fried carrot cake), and a pleasant evening walk. On this note, let me give thanks for: 

  • Help with Trainer Profile. A fellow trainer recently asked whether I would be interested in delivering a module for an Advanced Diploma programme at an academy. I am grateful for the opportunity, and today I finally got down to developing my trainer profile for the application. Beyond the task itself, it felt affirming to be considered for this role as I continue to grow in my work as a trainer and coach. I will let the profile sit for a couple more days before reviewing it again and submitting it, and I am grateful to my friends and, of course, Gen AI, for helping me refine it. 
  • Indulgences & Company. Lately, I have been craving cai tau kway, and I persuaded D to join me for it this afternoon. It was exactly what I had been looking forward to - black, nicely charred, and thoroughly satisfying. While we were at it, we also shared a plate of rojak. It was a simple but very enjoyable treat. To top it off, since we had been talking about durians recently, we ended the afternoon with a box of Mao Shan Wang. Lol... I am grateful for these little indulgences and for D’s company. 
  • An Intentional Day. I started the day with clear intentions: to work on my trainer profile, fulfil my craving and complete my step count. I am glad I managed to do all of these and more. In anticipation of my indulgence, I kept lunch light with 3 hard-boiled eggs. While I did not strictly track calories, I was mindful enough to enjoy the day without going too far off my usual balance, while still meeting my exercise needs. For this awareness and self-discipline, I am grateful. 
Overall, I thought the day was well spent. It has been a while since I enjoyed such rich food, and I end the day feeling happy and content.

Friday, 22 May 2026

Grateful 21 & 22 May: Keep Going!

I am tired after two long days of training, but I am grateful for the following: 

  • Energetic Class. It was one of the biggest classes I have ever had, but I was grateful that the learners were highly active and engaged. They asked deep questions and were genuinely eager to learn. Their energy kept me going. 
  • Honey. I have not been feeling too well over the last couple of days. My throat was a little sore, and I was worried I might lose my voice. I was glad I had a bottle of honey in my fridge. It really helped soothe my throat.  
  • Comfort. I am deeply grateful for the comfortable home that I have. I slept at 8:30pm and slept very well. I woke up at 5am feeling well-rested, and that kept me going for the rest of the day. 
The last two days have been exhausting. I hardly slept the night T passed on, and I was completely drained when I conducted the training yesterday. Yet the training ended on a high, and I remain grateful for - the energetic learners, the comfort of home, and above all, having honey at hand.

Sunday, 3 May 2026

$2.50


It’s been sometime since I had a meal that cost me only $2.50. And top it off, it tasted really good! I believe only an Asian will understand what I mean when I say - fragrance of steaming hot rice!

Saturday, 2 May 2026

Grateful 2 May: Rest & Recuperate

After an intense week, the last thing I expected was a difficult night and poor sleep. So I decided to just take things slow today. And for that, I am grateful for: 

  • Mind. Allowing myself to rest a little longer. After my morning meditation, I decided to go back to bed and rest a while more. There’s no rush to engage in deep thinking or handle heavy work. It’s simply a day to slow down, breathe, and take things gently. My mind needs this break, and I’m grateful for it. 
  • Body. The opportunity to pause and give myself the space to simply laze in bed. No stress to do anything intense or physical. Just being spontaneous and napping if I feel like it. After a week of constantly moving and doing, the pause for my body feels necessary. 
  • Stomach. Taking things easy and not stressing my stomach, especially after the indigestion from last night’s oily Chinese food. So today’s meals were light and without the pressure to have my “usual” meals on time. Just slow walks, watery porridge, and plenty of water to settle the stomach. It’s a day to recover and reset. 
Being intentional about resting and giving myself the space to recuperate is probably the best thing I can do for myself today. And I’m grateful that I made the decision to do so, especially after a night of poor sleep and feeling uncomfortable from indigestion. Sometimes, our body has a way of telling us to slow down when our mind keeps wanting to push on. Today felt like one of those reminders.

Thursday, 23 April 2026

Grateful 23 Apr: Purposeful Routine

I completed the first day of my two-day training today, and overall I thought went relatively smoothly. That said, the pacing was not quite what I had intended. I moved too quickly and ended up with more time than expected. I ended up bringing forward some of tomorrow’s content. I will need to think about how best to fill the time tomorrow, perhaps by designing an additional activity. Let me think about it. Anyway, training was the main focus of my day, and there are a few things I am especially grateful for: 

  • Preparedness. I was well prepared, and this gave me the confidence to move through the content smoothly and respond effectively to participants’ questions. Although my pacing could have been better, my familiarity with the material allowed me to adjust the schedule and adapt when needed. What matters most is that the learners were able to follow and had a positive learning experience. I am grateful for the effort I invested in preparing, as it made a real difference today. Today’s experience reinforces my belief that we can only be truly creative when our foundations are strong. My preparedness and familiarity with the content allowed me to be flexible and creative in my delivery when things did not go according to plan. 
  • Beer. After a full day of training, I felt quite drained. It has long been a personal ritual of mine since years ago to have a mug of beer after such sessions, even when I conducted training overseas during my corporate days. I continued with that routine with a bottle of beer over dinner in Bedok today. It was the natural thing to do. I am grateful for this simple pleasure as it helps me unwind and settle after an intense day. It also reminds me that such small indulgences, while seemingly trivial, can bring balance to life, especially during demanding periods. 
  • Entertainment. I appreciate being able to wind down at the end of the day with YouTube. It has become a comforting routine - whether it is karaoke, documentaries, or short films, including LGBT stories that are not often shown on mainstream platforms such as the tv or Netflix. Tonight, I ended the day learning about the history of Chinese surnames and watching BL films. It felt like a gentle and enjoyable close to the day, and something I have come to appreciate more over time. 
Today was, in many ways, a typical training day - waking early, having breakfast, logging in, conducting the session, heading out for dinner, and ending the day with some quiet entertainment. There is something worth appreciating in this sense of routine. More importantly, I am reminded that it is not just about delivering training. It is about supporting my learners’ development, and that is something I find genuinely meaningful.

Friday, 17 April 2026

Grateful 17 Apr: Draining but Positive

Quite a few positive moments today. I ended the day feeling drained, but in a good way. Here are some of the things I am grateful for: 

  • Fulfilling training. I ended the day on a high note after delivering a training session that I personally felt went well. I am not overly concerned about the evaluation feedback (which I will receive in the coming week), as I tend to measure effectiveness by how I feel and whether the outcomes were achieved - and today, we had a 100% pass rate. That felt very satisfying, especially as this is a topic I am deeply familiar with. I was able to share my experiences naturally and authentically, and seeing even the non-practitioners succeed was particularly rewarding. I am grateful for the opportunity - it has been a year in the making, and I finally did it. 
  • Reconnections with Friends. For some reason, I received a few messages from former colleagues and friends today. One of them had not been in touch for close to a decade, so her message felt especially heartwarming. The last time I saw her family, her son was barely a metre tall - and now he is over 1.8 metres and taller than me! Another friend checked in to see how I have been, and I was glad to learn that she is now happily settled in her job after a few challenging years transitioning from her cabin crew days. Yet another shared that her biopsy results were positive, with nothing concerning. I am truly grateful for these connections - their messages meant a lot. 
  • Double dinner. After training, I felt quite drained and had dinner at Bedok South. To my surprise, the price of caifan seems to have doubled in just two weeks - my only (half-serious) conclusion is - Iran war (some president, to be exact, LOL)! After that, I messaged a friend who had just returned from Finland, and by coincidence, she had just landed and was on her way home. We ended up meeting for another round of food - this time, north-eastern Chinese cuisine, along with a bottle of beer for myself. Superbly indulgent, and I cannot remember the last time I had two dinners in one evening. Still, I am grateful for both the company and the experience. It is nice to allow such moments once in a while. 
So yes, despite the physical drain from training, the people - trainees, friends - and good food more than made up for it. I ended the day feeling very good and deeply grateful.

Sunday, 12 April 2026

Grateful 12 Apr: Indulgences


It’s Sunday, and I was supposed to be conducting training today. However, due to a last-minute admin issue, I had to swap my slot with another trainer. That left me with a full day to myself - and it turned out to be a good one. Here’s what I did, and why I’m glad I did it: 

  • Windsor Park Nature Trails. I woke up early, as I usually would on a training day. But instead of rushing through my preparations, I had a slow, unhurried breakfast in Simei before heading to Windsor Park Nature Trails in the Central Catchment Area. The trails could have led me to the MacRitchie Reservoir Treetop Walk, which was my initial plan, but as I walked, I decided not to go that far. Instead, I explored a couple of shorter paths. The sun had only just risen, the air was still cool, and the canopy was dew-drenched. It was deeply refreshing. It had been a long time since I last took a forest walk at 7-ish in the morning, and I’m glad I returned to it.
  • Morning indulgences. I felt a little hungry when I got back to Simei and decided to have a second breakfast - or perhaps, more accurately, brunch. This time, I treated myself to a double fish fillet burger and an apple pie. I think the last time I had one was about a year ago. I’ve been keeping away from fast food in my efforts to eat clean and stick to a strict calorie count. So the double fish fillet and apple pie is a nice way to reward myself, especially after a morning walk! Back home, I took a 15-min nap - something I don’t usually do. But having woken up at 4am, it felt deserved. The rest refreshed me. Without planning it, the morning became one of small indulgences - the extra treat, the nap - things I had quietly denied myself. I had missed these small rewards! It also reminded me of how I sometimes “rebel” when told what I shouldn’t eat (with ChatGPT, no less!) - because then the question becomes: what’s the point of living? Heh...
  • Afternoon indulgences. I headed out again before noon, intending to attend my Buddhist class. But in a last-minute, rather spontaneous decision, I chose instead to go shopping. I ended up at Parkway Parade, a place that has always felt like home to me - after all, it was where I used to hang out in my late teens. There’s something quietly therapeutic about being there. While wandering, I decided - once again - to treat myself, this time to a plate of premium rojak. It was pure bliss: the mix of fruits, you char kueh, tau pok, bean sprouts, and dried squid, all coated in prawn paste and ground peanuts. I had missed it. I told myself it was for my mental well-being, recalling something I had read recently - at 60, do what makes you happy; don’t keep putting it off. I’m glad I didn’t.
So yes, today turned out to be a day of indulgence, even as I worked towards my daily walking target. Reflecting on it, perhaps this is my way of holding a balance - staying disciplined in my diet and exercise, while still tending to my well-being and allowing space for joy. I’m grateful the day unfolded the way it did.

Wednesday, 8 April 2026

Grateful 8 Apr: Being creative


I didn’t sleep particularly well last night. Not because anything was troubling me, but because my mind was filled with thoughts about training - how I could do this better, or approach that differently. Those thoughts kept me awake for a while before I finally slept. I worked on my ideas this morning and the day flew by quickly. So let me talk about being creative, as it appeared in several aspects of my day.
  • Training. After breakfast, I went straight to my laptop. My mind was still brimming with ideas for my training session this Friday. How to use activities to teach certain concepts? What questions should I include? How should I sequence the questions? How much time to allocate to each segment? How should I deliver should there be a particular class profile? These were the thoughts that kept me awake, and I wanted to work on them before they slipped away. The morning passed quickly, totally immersed mentally, and before I knew it, it was time for lunch. So yes, when I start to get creative with my instructional designs and time management, I know I am ready. I just need to remind myself not to overdo it - there is still another module to prepare. For now, I am grateful for the progress made.
  • Dessert. I’m not usually one for desserts these days. I do have a sweet tooth, and they used to be almost a given. But lately, with calorie counting on my mind, desserts have been one of the first things to go. Today, however, I decided to be a little more relaxed and go with how I felt. During my afternoon walk, I treated myself to a slice of pandan kaya cake (above pic), alongside a second kopi o kosong. I justified it - less rice at lunch, a good walk after lunch - it felt ok. The cake, unfortunately, had been sitting out too long. It was hard and stale. Thankfully, the kopi o kosong softened it and it wasn’t too bad. Most importantly, I appreciated this little indulgence. Perhaps this too is a form of creativity - finding balance, adjusting, and compensating with a lighter dinner, which I did.
  • Time & Energy. I’ve been quite caught up with work and various activities lately, and as a result, I haven’t paid much attention to some of life’s simple routines and hobbies. Today, however, after my training preparation and that small indulgence, I found the energies to return to them and once I started, the momentum caught on. By dinner time, I had completed the marcotting process of a Ficus plant I started almost a month ago (below pic), loosened the soil of several pots, washed the balcony, did the laundry, mend my shoes, even as I cooked my dinner. It turned out to be a deeply fulfilling day - catching up on all the little things that had quietly accumulated over time.
So this was my day - being creative in designing instructions, making thoughtful choices about and how what I eat, using my time in response to the rhythms of the day and bringing attention back to little things that matter. It reminded me that being creative is not just about producing something new. It is about being intentional - with my thoughts, my choices, and my energy. In that sense, even an ordinary day can become a meaningful one.

Tuesday, 7 April 2026

Grateful 7 Apr: Misadventures - Not

Tbh, today felt like a day of misadventures. And indeed, it was - but nonetheless, there are many things that I can still be grateful for. Let me share the details here: 
  • Sungei Buloh Wetlands - Not. I woke up early, feeling all enthusiastic about going to Sungei Buloh Wetlands. After all, I had wanted to go there last week but ended up going to Jurong instead. I left home early after a quick meditation, went to Simei for my kopi o kosong, and then took the MRT to Tampines and happily boarded service 168. The bus was supposed to take me to Woodlands, where I would change to another bus, and the whole journey would be some 2 hours long. 45 min into the journey, the skies turned dark - ominously dark… I checked the weather app and, horrors… huge thunderstorm ahoy! And looking at the size of the clouds and the forecast, the impending storm would last till afternoon. I decided to abandon my plans, alighted and made a u-turn back. It looked like there were no outdoor options for me. So I headed to Bedok, took an early lunch, and bought the famous Teochew soon kueh (traditional bamboo shoot snack) before heading back home. Not quite what I had planned, but looking back, I did get a small “excursion” out of it - and a good snack too. Perhaps that was enough for the morning, and I am thankful for it.
  • MacRitchie Reservoir & Cuties - Not. Back home, I ate the soon kueh and as I waited for the rain to ease. I weighed some options for my outdoor walk: Tanah Merah Beach, MacRitchie Reservoir (MR)… The rain didn’t look like it was about to stop, so Tanah Merah Beach was out. Not wanting to spend the whole afternoon at home, I decided to take the MRT to Chinatown for tea instead. Hopefully, the rain would clear and I could still make my way to MR and maybe spot some cute young fit guys running. As I had another round of kopi o kosong, I was quite pleased to see the rain clouds clearing on the app. Feeling hopeful, I headed towards MR - a 45-min journey on the bus. And guess what - when I reached, there was still a light drizzle, just enough to make walking pointless. And instead of young cute guys, the place was filled with teenage canoeists - all young enough to be my grandkids. Darned! I decide to leave. Still, the trip wasn’t entirely wasted. The tea break in Chinatown was rather nice - unhurried, and a good pause. 
  • Smooth Journey - Not. I boarded another bus towards town, thinking I might do some window shopping. The bus journey itself was uneventful, apart from an irritating fellow watching a show on his mobile at full volume. By the time I reached the fringe of town, it was already quite late, and I decided to just head home instead. And so I changed bus, but the one I intended to take was crowded and I took the one behind, planning to switch to one that would take me home further down the road. Alas, I forgot the bus service number I was on, and ended going around 2 - 3 housing estates before ending at an interchange nowhere near my place. Thankfully, there was a coffee shop nearby, and I ended up having a very nice dinner - caifan with stir-fried stingray. It has been a while since I had that, and I enjoyed it.
So yeah, that was how my day went. I travelled across half the island, u-turned to Bedok, went back home, then to town, to MR, back to town, around a few housing estates, and finally home - objectively, not achieving very much. But along the way, there were pockets of enjoyment: good kopi o kosong, soon kueh, a quiet afternoon tea, and a comforting dinner... The day totally didn’t go according to plan. Things didn’t line up, plans kept shifting, not by design, and yet nothing really went wrong either. And maybe that is something worth noting - that even on a day that felt slightly off, there were still enough small, good moments to carry it through. I am grateful for these good moments.

Monday, 6 April 2026

Grateful 6 Apr: Peace

I think it might be because of the very busy and mentally stimulating day I had yesterday. I slept really well last night and woke up feeling clear-headed, energetic, and refreshed. Perhaps it is also because I feel relatively confident about the training preparation I have done over the past few days, and quietly assured that I will be able to hold the class this coming Friday. And so, let me give thanks for the following today:
  • Meditation. It must have been the good night’s sleep, for I woke up feeling very clear-minded and peaceful. This allowed me to meditate and hold the stillness for a good half hour without much effort, for which I am grateful. Thinking about it, this calmness is likely the result of both the full day I had yesterday and the clearing of my “mental knot”.
  • Confidence. I felt good about my training preparation. I have not felt this way for a while, especially when I am about to teach a new subject this Friday. I went through the details again this morning, systematically - starting from the admin, the name list (with a last-minute insertion of a new learner, again...), the assessment reports, the activity workbook, the assessment settings in the portal, and finally the lesson content. There are, of course, some still outstanding admin matters, but these can be completed quickly on the training day itself. For being able to reach where I am now, I give thanks for the many iterations and the preparation I have put in over the past days and weeks. I look forward to delivering the training.
  • Breaking the habit. I decided against recording the details of my meals in ChatGPT today. I have been doing it diligently since early Nov 2025 in my efforts to monitor my weight and I had my fair share of struggles with ChatGPT for the constant chiding of what I should eat for each meal. I woke up today almost 2kg heavier than usual, and I am quite certain it was due to the heavy Chinese dinner I had last evening - all the soups, the meats, and so on. But I also realised I had been too strict with myself, to the point of not being able to simply enjoy life. What is the point of imprisoning myself with all the records and getting so worked up about my food intake after each meal? When I think about it, it is actually quite amusing that I should get annoyed with ChatGPT for chiding me about my sodium intake, how much protein I had missed, and what I should make up for, etc. So today, I chose not to record my meals. So what if I end the day weighing a little heavier. What the heck, right? So yes, I am grateful to myself for making this deliberate decision to rid myself of this behaviour, and I am at peace with it.
Yet again, I am reminded that balance is important. It is not about absolute control, but also about knowing when to loosen the grip. Being disciplined - such as devoting time to training preparation - is important, as it gives me peace of mind; but when a behaviour that began as discipline starts to control me, it becomes, in itself, a problem. I am grateful for this realisation.

Sunday, 5 April 2026

Grateful 5 Apr: Qingming

I was supposed to be conducting training today, but due to a last-minute change, I found myself unexpectedly free. Instead of sleeping in, I chose to keep to my usual training schedule — I went for an early morning walk, had breakfast, and filled my day with activities. It turned out to be a rather full and meaningful day. On this day, I am thankful for:
  • Remembrance. Today is Qingming Festival (清明节), a day of remembrance. Some refer to it as Tomb-Sweeping Day, though this is somewhat simplistic. The Chinese name, when translated literally, means “Clear and Bright”, reflecting the seasonal shift towards warmer, rainier weather and the greening of the landscape. Over time, it has come to be associated with remembering ancestors - visiting graves, offering prayers, and paying respects. As a guide, one can commemorate Qingming by visiting the graves anytime within 2 weeks before/ after the actual day. I had initially planned to visit the columbarium on Tuesday, but decided to go today instead. This year, however, I chose not to purchase the usual ancestor worship paraphernalia. This decision was influenced by a video I watched by a Buddhist venerable, who shared that making a donation to the temple can be just as meaningful as a way of expressing gratitude and remembrance. And that is what I did. 
  • Rain. True to its name, it rained while I was on the bus heading to the columbarium. I hadn’t expected it, especially after weeks of blazing heat with hardly any rain, and I had not brought an umbrella. I was prepared to wait it out at the bus stop, but as it turned out, the rain stopped just as I arrived. The weather turned cool, and I was able to walk to the columbarium without getting wet. I felt grateful for that.
  • Buddhist class. I am glad I made the effort to attend the Buddhist class after my visit to the columbarium. The topic covered helped me gain clarity on the issue that had troubled me over the past few days. Interestingly, the facilitator did something he had never done before - he invited us to reflect on a recent issue that had been on our minds, and guided us through a short meditation to explore its causes and effects. The exercise was deeply helpful, and it felt as though things fell into place for me. Today’s exercise is so timely and I am truly grateful for it.
Once again, the day felt quietly aligned. Everything seemed to fall into place - from the timely clearing of the rain, to the meditation that brought clarity, and finally, the simple gesture of PY texting to ask if I wanted to have dinner, which I did, and ate my north eastern Chinese food. I could not be more thankful for how the day unfolded.

Wednesday, 18 March 2026

Grateful 18 Mar: Reconnections


Today was special - I had the chance to reconnect with a few people who, in different ways, matter to me. 
  • D and T. I met D and T this morning. It wasn’t planned. I had gone for a urine test and had to wait as I didn’t have sufficient urine for collection. While waiting, I chanced upon them. It was such a coincidence! We ended up having a quick breakfast at Geylang Serai. Being just three days before Hari Raya Aidil Fitri, the place - long the heart of all things Malay - was buzzing with activity, with many doing their festive grocery shopping. D, T and I used to meet more often, but with work preoccupations recently, our meet-ups has dwindled. In fact, I have not seen them since CNY. As such, being able to reconnect with them today felt really good and I am grateful for it. I am glad to see T managing well despite his health issue. 
  • L. I met L for lunch today. It’s been months since that awkward conversation some months back and I have chosen not to initiate contact, leaving it to him to decide instead. He needs to decide how our close-to-five-decades friendship will evolve in the years ahead. As for me, I do not wish to place myself in a position where I might feel judged. Life is too short for that. We’ve only met once following that meet up, and last week he asked if I was free for lunch today. So we met. The conversation was warm but at times, awkward. Nonetheless, I am grateful that he took the initiative to reconnect. The ball remains in his court. 
  • M. I miss my buddy. He last visited me a week ago and has been busy taking care of his mum. I didn’t want to impose, and had left it to him to initiate any meet-ups. Looking after an elderly is not easy and I can relate and empathise. Whenever I think about his situation, I am reminded of how I once told my ex that my priorities would always lie with my own mum - that I would place her above everything else. This morning, at the Geylang Serai market, I had intended to buy ondeh ondeh for breakfast, but the makcik (Malay auntie) sold me roti jala (see picture) instead. I didn’t correct her and simply paid for it, and decided to keep it for dinner. As it turned out, during my conversation with M, he mentioned that he enjoys roti jala. It felt like a small, timely alignment, and I took it as a cue to invite him over. I am glad and grateful that he made time to come by this evening. After some time apart, it felt good to reconnect again - simply, quietly, and without expectation. It was nice to finally spend time together. 
Today reminded me that reconnections do not always come in big, dramatic moments. Sometimes, they happen quietly - in chance encounters, in tentative conversations, or in small, unexpected turns, like how a simple packet of roti jala ended up finding its way into the right moment. And for all of that, I am grateful.

Friday, 13 March 2026

Grateful 13 Mar (2): Ego Boosting Day


Today was supposed to be uneventful, and in many ways it was - except for one interesting experience. Cheekily, I’d say it boosted my ego and it was certainly a huge contrast compared to what happened yesterday. Let me share a little more, starting with the uneventful ones.
  • Warm Experiences. I visited the Bedok South hawker centre today for lunch and realised that I had not eaten pork porridge for quite a while. Thankfully the stall was open and the owner’s wife was there taking orders as usual. I paid using my government-issued vouchers. The thing about these vouchers is that most shops do not give change, so we often have to combine them with cash or digital payments to make up the exact amount. But this stall allows me to pay more than the item cost and will give me the change in cash. Such arrangement works very well for me because the coffee stall I usually go to accepts only cash. After getting my porridge, I went to the coffee stall to order my usual caffein fix. The coffee uncle (actually he’s about my age) is so used to my order that he asked his staff to prepare it even before I said anything - kopi-o kosong, mai ka muah (black coffee, no sugar, not too full/ partially filled). This has been my usual order since many years ago as I wanted to limit my coffee intake. I was surprise he remembered my order as I had not visited his stall for months! These small interactions reminded me how stall owners recognise their regulars and remember their usual orders, and such simple familiarity brings much warmth to the experience. I’m thankful for these small, everyday connections. 
  • CDC Vouchers. I’m also thankful for the vouchers issued under the CDC Vouchers Scheme. These are given to households as a way of providing support and the amount vary every year. Over the past few years, households have received hundreds of dollars annually for reasons that had evolved since the scheme started: initially to help offset the 1% GST increase, and later to cushion the impact of rising living costs due to inflation post-COVID, etc. These vouchers can be used at neighbourhood hawker stalls and heartland shops or supermarkets and is also a mean to help these neighbour businesses sustain themselves. On average, the amount given to me each year translates to free lunches for almost 4 - 5 months in real terms. So today’s lunch was one small reminder of how such policies quietly support everyday living. As a freelancer, I am grateful for this scheme.
  • An unexpected ego boost. Yesterday, someone - not particularly young - offered me his seat on the MRT, which created my "happy yet WTF" moment. "WTF" cos it probably bruised my ego (heh heh...). Today I had another experience that, cheekily speaking, gave my ego a small boost instead.  You see, after lunch, I went to a shopping centre to window shop and visited the toilet. As I was at the urinal, I noticed someone - probably in his late 30s - washing his hands at the basin and beoing (looking at/ cruising) me through the mirror. The next thing I knew, he came over and stood at the urinal next to me. That was a little unusual, since most people would leave an empty space between urinals. As he stood there, he kept glancing at me - up and “down”. The signals were obvious. But I didn’t respond and left. He then followed me out and walked quickly ahead of me towards the next toilet, turning his head frequently - quite obviously inviting me to follow him... Ok, shan't go into details. Suffice to day, nothing happened. But his behaviour clearly suggested that he was keen in some toilet fun. It has been ages since I experienced such “invite”, and I must admit it gave my ego a little boost. I’m thankful for this moment in what was otherwise a simple day. 
So yes, that was my day. It would have been rather routine had it not been for that small episode at the shopping centre. Reflecting, it was funny how the most ordinary days like today can provide such small, warm and amusing moments - a familiar hawker stall, a coffee uncle who remembers my order, and an unexpected encounter that, admittedly stirred me a bit down there... Heh... and for all these moments on an otherwise routine day, I am grateful. And oh, I just realised today is Friday, the 13th. Ok, that's a little random!

:-)