Reviewing trips & locations

I’ve been reviewing trips and locations in Tripadvisor for a couple of months now. Good place to serve as my travel-log and also capture my opinions about the places I experienced and the food I ate. 

Getting used to... life goes on...

Will you be embarrassed if someone, who is your leader and/ or represents you, consistently conducts himself/ herself in a manner that is inconsistent with your values?

I will.

Yet on the other hand, I know I have no choice given that he/ she is in the position and I will just ignore and distant myself away from him/ her and not associate myself with his actions/ words. It’s not a pleasant thing to do. But I acknowledged such people exists and I supposed, over time, I have to get used to them.

I do not enjoy being in such a position but...

Life goes on.

Insomnia

...

Highly Irritable Me

Of late, I noticed:

• I am highly irritable and impatient
• I get pissed off with people and things around me
• I have mood swings
• I am often misunderstood 
• I feel depressed
• I don't feel like doing anything
• I am losing control of things
• I feel helpless
• I feel trapped
• I want to go overseas badly
• I don't enjoy my life
• I feel that life has no meaning and purpose
• I don't want to talk
• I want company, yet
• I want to be alone in my own thoughts
• I want attention and people to pamper me
• I feel overwhelmed by and under-supported at work
• ...

Ok, just venting... hoping for this phase to pass... too consumed by the “I”s. Not good. Perhaps, I am just burned out and I need a very very very long break - a break away from Singapore and with people I want to be with.

Aging Doctor

I've seen Dr Kong for as long as I can recall. I also understood from my late-mum that he operated on me when I was 5 years old. That was almost 5 decades ago. Dr Kong runs a clinic in Marine Parade since 1974 and he's been well-regarded by many in the neighbourhood for his friendliness. He has, over the years, seen many families and has earned the title of "family doctor" for many. Many continued to return to Marine Parade to see him even after they moved out of the estate. I am one of them. 

Dr Kong is in his 80s now. In recent times, I noticed his increasing frailty. He still runs his clinic but occasionally, his son, who is also a medical practitioner, will stand in for him. I also suspect his memory is beginning to fail him. He now shows signs of forgetfulness. And I say that because I went to see him over the weekend and instead of addressing me by my English name (like how he had done over the last 5 decades), he addressed me by my chinese name (as shown in my medical record card). It was weird. I related this incident to the clinical assistant and they also shared that this happened to another lady patient.

Signs of time and aging.

Want to vs Have to

Do things for people because you want to and not because you have to... Some thing to think about. Another way to look at it is - Do what you want, but make people feel you mean it.

Hmmmm...

Reflections

得到的未必是好的

丢掉的未必是坏的