哭 (cry)

ah... 1998, 1999... years where tears flowed freely. the years where my heart ached. really ached. really really ached. those were my early years after my coming out. people i was interested in, people whom i had my crushes on... one heartache after another. the process of falling in and out of love, one-sided love, getting and being jaded, fearing relationships, self-doubt, self-destruction, etc, etc, etc. very destructive years. and i would listen to this song. i could identify with the lyrics so much. and listening to this song made me crawl deeper and deeper inside me. more and more... and i would wallow in my own mishaps in love. we only lived once and it was times like these that defined our life. it numbed and almost killed my innermost self.

i recovered. eventually. i have lived. i have loved.