difficult week

it has been a very difficult week on all fronts for me.

health-wise, the doctor has more or less confirmed that i have recurring kidney stones. and my cough and choked nose continued to trouble me. was given 2 days of mc to rest at home. then again, i had to stay away from the house as i did not want mum to worry about me. 

work-wise, i was on mc but on the days when i was back at work, i felt totally lost and many interesting developments took place. i was told i will not be promoted. i was half dead and had to conduct a 1-day program despite my bad throat. almost lost my voice a couple of times through the day and had to excuse myself a couple of times to clear my throat and my nose. i was glad i pulled through it. i was glad it was a short work-week. 

at home, mum was relative stable but her condition constantly turn a little "iffy" at night. the constant worry of her mood turning bad kept me on my toes throughout the week. it was quite challenging to have to continue with the nightly routine of bringing her out to keep her mind occupied despite my sickness. but i supposed the outings also allowed me some fresh air and that kept me going.

relationship-wise, it was disastrous. bee returned after his 4-day/ night disappearance to bkk for songkran. my anxiety and worries turned very quickly into anger and i literally burst! my anger carried through the week. despite this tensions, i had to keep a cheerful and smily face in front of mum and at work. not easy. 

all these tensions translated to constant foul moods and sleepless nights or at best, nights with lots of interrupted sleep and weird dreams. well, i'm glad i survived. i supposed when things are down, the only direction that it can go going forward is up. it's good friday today and yes, it was indeed a good friday for me. 

in all sense.