what a sunday 1

i think my bazhi (literally, eight characters or also known as "birth/ star signs") clashed with my maid's today. we had so many uncomfortable moments today, moments where i could possibly lash out at her if i wanted, if i had not held my cool.

we went to the market this morning and i brought my mum to for her breakfast. we went to another store and i asked the maid to proceed to buy coffee from the usual store that we patronise. she looked unhappy, took the money and left. then she came back 5 minutes later empty handed and told me the store was closed. i asked her to go to another store and she gave me this wtf look. ok, i simply took it she was unhappy. she went for a long while, so long that my mum and i had finished out breakfast. i went to look for her and found her at another store queuing up. i was like, wtf! there're so many stores and you must go to one that has a super long queue! but i didn't say anything. 

she went back, took the breakfast i bought for her, and then complained that it was too oily. darned! that was what you usually eat and today, you complained its too oily. never mind, just take a piece of tissue and squeeze the oil out i told her. she finished her breakfast and we went about doing our grocery shopping. and she seemed to be in a world of her own. taking her own sweet time as she pushed mum's wheelchair. and once, she lost me and i had to backtrack to trace her whereabouts. never mind, i thought to myself, perhaps it was just me. i need to hold my cool. and then, as i was walking, she pushed the wheelchair into me. the wheelchair hit my right archilles tendon and i squirmed in pain. never mind, i just told her not to walk too close to me and simply forgot about the issue.

all the while, i simply assumed it was the time of the month for her and thus she was a little distracted and perhaps edgy. and then this evening, as i was walking with my niece and nephew at the garden's by the bay, she once again crashed the wheelchair into me. and once again, it crashed into my right archilles tendon. this time round, i couldn't take it anymore. i stared at her and she simply apologised and said she didn't notice me as she was enjoying the scenery and looking up at the flowers. darned! i thought as i told her sharply, when you walk with a  wheelchair, for goodness sake, pay attention to the front and don't look all over the place! how can you hit me twice in a day like that!?! in my mind, i was thinking, wtf, you are a maid and i pay you to push ah ma along, not to enjoy the outing like as though you are part of the family. yup, i was just that mad. but of cos i didn't say it out that way. it would be a tat too insensitive if i were to scream that out.

i think she got my message. after that she kept a distance from me.