"i am scared"

i told mum about my upcoming visit to china last week. and once again, her anxiety is beginning to show. the usual asking of lots of questions, the usual increased forgetfulness, and the insomnia. and this morning, she repeated the same questions again… when are you going overseas? you going to malaysia right? what time will you be leaving?

and then she said, i want to go and stay at your brother's place. i am scared. i don't want to stay alone in this house. when you are not around, there is no man in the house and i am afraid of being alone. i don't want to go to the rehab center. i want to call the rehab center manager and tell her i don't want to go there…

well, it came out of no where and i must admit my initial reaction was one of disappointment and tension. i had made preparations for her for this visit and have also arranged for my sis to come over the cook for her during my absence. but well, i didn't let my tensions show. i simply told her that i will make the adjustments and send her to my brother's place on tuesday evening after work.

with this development, i have gotten busy again rearranging things. let's hope things don't go awry like it did the last time she stayed there…