kancheong mum

as expected, mum has been showing signs of anxiety about me starting work on 1 june (next week). to prepare her mentally for this eventuality, i have deliberately cut down the frequency of my visits. also, once i got confirmation of my work, i have, at the earliest moments, told her about it. and i have time and again, reminded her that i would only be able to visit her on weekends once i start work. and in her usual self, she would happily accept it when i talk to her face-to-face as it meant i would be getting a salary henceforth. but once i leave her and come home, she would call me again asking if i would be starting work on 1 june. and she would repeatedly ask this question every other day. sometimes she would get her dates/ day wrong and end up getting even more anxious. for example, yesterday, she called me and remind me that i need to visit her as this would be my `last' visit this week. and today, just before i wrote this entry, she called me up telling me that 1 june is this coming saturday.

hmmm... i guessed she was anxious becos once i start work, apart from not being able to spent time with her, she probably thought she would have to make different arrangements with regards her "hong you" purchases, her visits to the temple, and so on. these are the things that i do for her and she probably thought my starting work would mean all these would come to an end... so, looking at it from this perspective, i can totally understand her anxiety... i think i need to put in more effort reassure her before next week comes...

:-)