my interview today

after all the preparations, the day started off with me getting lost on the island. i went round and round looking for the place. and when i found the place, i could not find the car park and had to park at a public car park a couple of hundred meters away. and following that, i had to walk to the building in the hot sun. it was uncomfortable considering i was in my long sleeve, tie and slacks. luckily i had given myself one hours' buffer and still managed to reach there early. for the interview itself, did it go well? i don't know for sure. well, it went on for an hour and a half. was that supposed to be a good sign? i am not sure. during that time, we went through my professional history, my family, my hobbies, my skills, my experiences in my previous organisation, etc. everything seemed rather ok. there was, however, one part that i screwed up big time. and that was the part where the interviewer asked me what my thoughts were about leadership. so i shared my perspective. i said there were a lot of differing theories including those that uses traits as a key factor to determine leaders. and i said i prefer to see leadership as a process although trait theory has its strength. i added that leadership need to also be discussed in context. unknowingly, i had apparently opened a floodgate for him. he pushed with more questions. in my haste, i gave some stupid answers. and after some round and round going-no-where conversation, he gave me his views. it was clear that indirectly, he was telling me i was talking cock. but he put it in a blunt yet not blunt way. hmmm, ok, i am contradicting myself again. but well, you get the idea. he finally ended by saying it was not an easy topic to discuss cos it is very complex. so, i thought i really screwed up this part. i had expected him to stop or bring the interview to an end. but he continued the conversation. i went on to ask what is the job scope. i needed for him to share this part cos the meeting was initiated as a chit chat session without clear indication of what position i was in for. he elaborated. for a short moment, i felt it was not really what i wanted. then again, i did not want to show any sign of not liking what he said. i told him i am open to it. all in all, my sensing by this time was that he would end the interview. but he surprised me by asking what kinda renumeration i am expecting. we discussed about it and he went on to give me a good run down how the company looks at renumeration, benefits, etc. and then he invited me to ask him more questions. there was a lot of mixed signal. why carry on and ask abt renumeration if i had screwed up? why did he keep pushing me to ask him questions yet when he answered them, he sounded a little impatient? the session ended with him telling me that he will discuss with his hr about the package and if he considers me suitable amongst the several he had already met, he would arrange for me to meet his boss. whatever the case, he assured me he will get back soonest possible. and to end it all, he brought me around the place and showed me the facilities. hmmm... so. there you have it. was the interview good? i really don't know. but all i know was that it was a really good and interesting experience. i came home and i wrote a note to thank him. i indicated in the note that i look forward to his positive response. but frankly, i am still not very sure if this is what i am looking for. then again, i told myself that it is better to at least give a positive response for now. i still have the prerogative to exercise my option of accepting the position when and if they decide to accept me. in the meantime, i will continue to do my job search and go for my interviews. :-)