end of week 1

haha... initially, wanted to write about mum and her deteriorating mental health and the havoc she is currently wrecking in the house, but thought i should instead reflect about how the first week of 2013 week. and wow! one week into the year already! that's one kinda fast right?

well, in short, apart from the resolution to get a job, i can confidently say that i have been able to use the list of foci to guide my week. but of cos, i have "reminded" my headhunter about the outstanding item she needed to get back to me. haha. and yes, despite mum's crankiness (that has gotten worst and her constant hostilities towards me), i managed to go for daily exercises, jogs, gone out with bee, friends and colleagues (something which i have not done for a long time), blog, brought sapphie to the beach, etc... in another words, leading a more balanced life. and wow... a year and a half away from all these so called outings made me realized how fast things have changed! i felt so out of place when i went to town last evening. the people looked different. more fashionable, seemed a lot younger, a sense of excitement that i have not sensed for a very long time. and of cos, a lot of gaymen! felt almost like a tourist in my own country!

and amidst all these, i have also deliberately made the effort not to call mum when i go out as i do not want her to have this reliance and to create any unnecessary future expectations. but to ensure she is ok, i have instead roped in my sis to call her and check on her when i am out. my sis would update me after that. i supposed this is the best arrangement for now. i know she is still adjusting to my increased outings but i think it is something she has to accept and to live with it (although i sense that the day when there will be a large eruption of tensions in the family would arise one of these days...) 

so... yup! things are moving along.