lending money

recently a friend asked to borrow money from me saying that he has been out of luck getting a job he likes and would like me to help him financially. i felt very uneasy (as usual) to be asked such things. on one hand, i didn't want to lend him as i had my own uneasiness about it. he had previously borrowed a jacket from me and has not returned. and it reflects the type of person he is. yet on the other hand, i wanted to help him. it is certainly within my means to do so. so, there was quite a bit of tensions in me. and there was a lot of ding dongings of smses. and admittedly, i went through quite a few inner iterations and soul-searching before deciding to pass the cash to him. i decided in the end to pass him a quarter of what he had asked for as that is the amount i could afford within getting myself into potential problems.

bee called me earlier telling me that he saw this friend shopping happily with a friend. he seemed pretty ok. but i told myself, if i had decided to help, i should. he has asked for assistance and whether he is or he is not in debt etc is not for me to ask. also, i am in no position to make any judgment on him just because he was seen shopping. i cannot expect a person who needs financial assistance to be sulky and moody. life still needs to go on.

well...