in again

mum felt unwell again today. nonetheless, she insisted on going to the columbarium to pay respects to dad and grandparents. we did that first thing in the morning. second sis came along and surprisingly, the columbarium was quite crowded. we came home at about 11plus in the morning and once we arrived at the condo car park, she vomited again. brought her home and wash up and send her in to the hospital straightaway.

this was the second time in two days that she vomited. when she vomited yesterday, i wanted to bring her in but she insisted she was ok. i knew she didn't like to visit the hospital for she knows that she would be warded. also, if i understood her well enough, she wanted to do the reunion dinner and cross the lunar new year at home, and to do prayers to dad and grandparents today. when she vomited again (after all the prayers) today, i suggested heading to the hospital and she agreed. she's in the critical care ward as i am blogging this entry and i have been told she needs to be admitted. 

thinking about it, it reminded me of dad's 100th day prayers. at that time, she insisted on doing the prayers for him and had moved back to stay with my brother, where an altar had been set-up for dad. she was so insistent on doing the prayers but on the 99th day, her body gave way and she had to be admitted. this time round, my brother had told her he would be offering prayers to my dad for the new year, but he refused to do the same for my grandparents as he had been harbouring lots tensions towards my uncle and aunties. and so she kept pestering me to do the prayers instead.

sighs.