dinner plans dashed

my uni friends had all arranged for a dinner tonight to celebrate those borned in dec. and of cos that would include me and another lady friend. and considering the fact that i am looking after my mum, they have also extended the dinner to her... but with mum going cranky today, i have decided to pull out of the dinner. but they were so nice as to want to cancel the restaurant reservation and have a gathering at my house instead. 

then again, mum resisted and went on her journey of self-pity... woes to me, i only wish my parents are still around, my children don't want me... she went on and on. and when told of my friends intention to change plan and to have dinner at home, she changed her tones and started to say how she would lock herself in, avoid them, that she is no use to us, la la la... i politely turned my friends down. bee is with them now and have asked him to advice them against coming to my place.

now back to my mum. stubborn as she is, i have tried many a times to give her food, to give her water, to make her bed, etc... but she was just in the self-pity mode. decided to call my sis to pay us a visit. and she got her dinner. and guess what, after sis left, she went into her self-pity mode again and kept to her room. i wanna sleep. she insisted. but instead of sleeping, she just laid on her mattress and kept peeping at me when i walk pass her room. well, in the end, i decided to just play the game her way. i decided to retire to bed. it was only 6.45pm, but what the heck. you wanna sleep, i will sleep too. and so, i prepared her medication for her. it must have surprised her for she asked why and insisted that her medication time is 9pm. ok, i said, i shall leave it on the table. take it when the time is up. as for me, i am going into my bedroom to sleep.

and as it stands now (half hour after retiring into my room), she has crept out of her bedroom and gone to the living room to watch tv. i supposed my plan to get her out of her room is working... but aiyah... i am helluva hungry now. i have not taken a morsel of food since morning... never mind, i'll just drink some water and sleep my hunger off...

now, the issue is - i am not sleepy! 

hahaha!