blah day

it was a super blah day for me today... and it was all due to mum. she went mental again this morning... arghhh... in fact she had been bordering between normal and mental these 2 days. and i noticed this trend, she would be ok in the afternoon till evening till she goes to bed. but when she wakes up, that's is... she will either have her moods, or she will complain of pains at the usual places, and she will also cough, get breathless, etc... and when she gets into such state, it is actually very difficult to manage her. and today, she said something that i feared most - she said her sickness must be due to someone casting some evil spells on her...

got me super upset. i was afraid of this cos that was what she said of the domestic help and my sis-in-law previously that resulted in a lot on family tensions. and in recent times, she also started imagining that bee's mum (whom she has never met), is out to harm her "becos she in the her way of taking over my property and money". so, when she started to associate her sickness (which was due to copd) to evil spells, i didn't take it too well. last thing i hope was for her to start suspecting bee, or me for that matter, for doing such things (not that we can or we believe is possible). but well... and to make things worst, she went into this mood swings and insisted on going to the taoist temple... got me all upset cos taoist temples are very smoky due to the joss sticks and she had been warned against exposing herself to places that would jeopardize her breathing... anyway...

ok, enough of rantings... in all, it was a blah day for me.

glad it is over.

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