mum has been slowly but surely getting weaker by the days. over the last week, i couldn't help but noticed how much weaker she had gotten. even her voice seemed to waiver when she spoke with me. to help her manage the grief following my dad's passing, i have often spoken with her over the phone. i would also speak to her about my dad and asked her if she missed him. to me, talking it out would be a very good way to release any pent up emotions. true enough, despite acknowledging that my dad's time was up and that she has accepted his demise, she couldn't help but missed him. she would tell me how she missed my dad's regular chats with her. she shared with me how my dad would relate current affairs and daily happenings to her as he watched the daily 1pm news. this, she told me, was something she missed most. now, she would simply stare blankly into the tv screen daily and, being illiterate, she could only interpret and derive whatever meaning by looking at the video clips that accompany the news reader. i felt sad when i heard this. and i could understand how she felt given that her life partner of 52 years was no longer around. sheeesh, my eyes are tearing as i type this post...
early last week, she fell twice in the middle of the night while trying to get to the toilet. it left her almost immobile. her pain, both at her knees as well as her body, had worsened. yet, she felt it necessary for her to attend my dad's birthday rites. yesterday, she came down with diarrhea. this had made her even weaker... she went to see the doctor this morning and had since been given an injection. sighs.
i remembered her telling me immediately after my dad's demise that she has to ensure everything was properly done for my dad after the funeral. and this would mean ensuring we do the nec rituals for him up till 100 days after his funeral. i do wonder if her sudden weakening was a sign of her giving up on life as the 100 days nears. i certainly hope not. for now, she's hoping to visit my place after the renovation is over. have promised to bring her to stay over sometime in mid-dec once the renovation works are over. and that'll be sometime in mid-dec. and i believe she is also looking forward to it.
early last week, she fell twice in the middle of the night while trying to get to the toilet. it left her almost immobile. her pain, both at her knees as well as her body, had worsened. yet, she felt it necessary for her to attend my dad's birthday rites. yesterday, she came down with diarrhea. this had made her even weaker... she went to see the doctor this morning and had since been given an injection. sighs.
i remembered her telling me immediately after my dad's demise that she has to ensure everything was properly done for my dad after the funeral. and this would mean ensuring we do the nec rituals for him up till 100 days after his funeral. i do wonder if her sudden weakening was a sign of her giving up on life as the 100 days nears. i certainly hope not. for now, she's hoping to visit my place after the renovation is over. have promised to bring her to stay over sometime in mid-dec once the renovation works are over. and that'll be sometime in mid-dec. and i believe she is also looking forward to it.
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