have been unemployed since early oct 12. and to many, it seemed like i have not done anything but simply wait for the (yes, the) job to come. well, in a way, yes but in another way, no.
yes, becos i was really looking forward to this job. after the 4 rounds of interviews, the chemistry was really good and, considering how things had unfolded a lot a lot better than i had expected, i felt good. very good for that matter. and from their hr head herself, that they are very happy with me and that they will get back to me. so, in a way, the positive vibes i got from them gave me a lot of hopes. (status update: till now, they have not gotten back despite saying they will try to get back by end-jan) so... a couple of my hr friends told me it is normal, that big companies will need time to sort things out. still, i couldn't but felt a little lost currently.
no, becos i was also looking around. ok, granted i wasn't looking around as aggressively as i had wanted due to the positive vibes i got, but i did looked. and the job market was slow in nov/ dec considering it was end of the year, christmas season, new year and all. and while i am beginning to see some activity in the job portals, i do not really expect to see much actions and hiring until after lunar new year next week. also, i think i must have forwarded my resumé to perhaps 4-6 headhunters. still, there was not much developments other than one of the headhunter calling me up for a chat. i was also thankful for the fact that some friends had called me up, and offered information about opportunities in roles such as associate trainers. for these, i have gone for one of the interview and the interviewer was very impressed with what i have to offer. nonetheless, i told her that i will only get back to her once i get a better clarity of the job offer that i have been waiting... otherwise, i continue to look at job portals, check out the recruitment sections of the local papers, talk to friends about possible opportunities etc...
so, the question is - am i demoralized? am i depressed? nope, i am sure i am not. i think i am holding quite well although i do admit there were occasions where i felt a little bored and uncertain about the immediate future. otherwise, in terms of stress, if any, they come from my mum. no one else. it has become a daily affair where i have to manage and get use to her suspicions and emotional abuse. must admit i have still not gotten used to it and still trying very hard not to internalise all the nonsense she throws at me daily. but well, that is another story.
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