Saturday, 21 April 2012

weekends

i am wondering if i will start to get paranoid about weekends.

whenever weekend comes, i have to manage my mum and psycho her to let me get out of the house for a couple of hours with bee. and from my doctor friend, i am beginning to understand that to manage paranoid patients such as mum, i have to constantly use positive strokes and reassurances. it worked. but on the other hand, i end up having bee taking things personal. that i am not managing things well. that i am not giving him the attention. that...

the pattern is showing. when i can manage mum, i cannot manage bee. and when i can manage bee, i cannot manage mum. i am fucking tired.

and if this continues, i will definitely get afraid of weekends.

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