it is difficult to handle things in life alone when the person you are caring for is so consumed with the self and don't have anymore sense of security. yet, you cannot let the ball drop becos without that person, you will not exist in this world.
it is difficult to handle things in life alone when the person you have been with starts to not see things from your point of view. the sense of emotional support suddenly dries up and reinforces the loneliness of having to take care of the elderly.
it is difficult to balance things between two persons closest to you when one feels insecure and the other feels neglected/ jealous and both don't understand why you do what you did and instead choose to see things from their own angles. yet, you cannot let the ball drop becos both persons fulfil different aspects of your humanly needs.
and above all, it is difficult to have my own space cos whatever space i have has either been committed to both people most important to me or to my work.
above all these, i cannot not consider my responsilities to my daemon who has been beside me through the full 12 years of her life, watching me and supporting me emotionally.
i am so so tired and sometimes, i do just simply wish to relieve myself of all these worldly emotional attachments.
it is difficult to handle things in life alone when the person you have been with starts to not see things from your point of view. the sense of emotional support suddenly dries up and reinforces the loneliness of having to take care of the elderly.
it is difficult to balance things between two persons closest to you when one feels insecure and the other feels neglected/ jealous and both don't understand why you do what you did and instead choose to see things from their own angles. yet, you cannot let the ball drop becos both persons fulfil different aspects of your humanly needs.
and above all, it is difficult to have my own space cos whatever space i have has either been committed to both people most important to me or to my work.
above all these, i cannot not consider my responsilities to my daemon who has been beside me through the full 12 years of her life, watching me and supporting me emotionally.
i am so so tired and sometimes, i do just simply wish to relieve myself of all these worldly emotional attachments.
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Hi, feel so sad for you when I read this. Take it a day at a time.
Take care.
hey ladybird, thanks! always nice to read ur comments. been a while. hope things have been well and you've nicely settled back in in your renovated place.
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