deflowered

today, i got deflowered... ha ha... well, what i meant was, today, i went to the urology center for my final procedure - cystoscopy. and yes, i also got my ct scan results.

my urinary system is normal! well, of cos, the doctor explained that my ct scan showed possibly some small stones. but given that i have not experienced any blood anymore in my urine, it meant that the stones have already been discharged and cleared from my system. also, the cystoscopy did not show any abnormality in urethra and my bladder. so... hey! i am ok!

:-)

anyway, the whole process of going through the cystoscopy was rather traumatic. the following explains.

i arrived. registered and was asked to head to another room to take my urine specimen (damned it! i just peed before that!). drank some tap water and tried my best to squeeze whatever i have into the cup. passed the cup to the nurses to do the urine tests. and was asked to wait for my turn to do the procedure.

waited for about an hour before i was called. i walked into the room. was asked to sign a consent form and was then asked to lie on the bed. face up. the nurse then asked me to lift up my gown all the way up to my waist. and she covered my lower body with a cloth. the doctors came. two of them. one of them explained the procedure to me. and then he asked me to expose myself - mr sim, i need you to expose yourself he went (it seemed a standard liner and very rehearsed). i did so and he told me he would be apply some solution and gel to my cock head area. next thing i knew, i felt some cooling solution being applied and before i knew it, he held up my penis and told me to breath in and out deeply. as i did so, i felt a surge of pressure entering my pee hole (into my urethra). it was superbly uncomfortable. and i felt a little pain.

and i was asked to breath deeply again. the pressure increased again. i felt something being pumped in and there seemed to be a lot of fluid flowing all over (this, i believe was to fill my bladder so that it can be stretched). and the next thing i knew, i was told i could take a look at my bladder. it was a very surreal experience to be able to see your own internal lining of your bladder. i mean, i had done the scope of my nasal cavity before where the doctor inserted a scope through my nostril and where i was able to see my pharynx, but to be able to see my own bladder lining brought this surreality to a whole new level! and i wanted to pee. arghhh... but i thought the internal lining of my bladder looked a little like the inner lining of a pig's stomach. haha!

and before i knew it, the probing began. he twisted the scope around the whole bladder. and at some points, i was able to see the point where the scope entered my bladder. well, blood vessels, normal, no growth, normal, turn around, again, some wavy folds, some more blood vessels, and he saw some red spot, went closer, magnify, nope. not something that he should be worried about, and he went round again. and once he was satisfied, he told me all seemed ok and that he should be able to discharge me and give me an open date. and as i turned my head to look at him, he pulled out the scope. next thing i felt was a whole lots of fluid flowing all over my lower body (i think it was the fluid he pumped into my bladder that came out when he pulled it out).

the procedure was done and completed in some 15-20min. but as i went through it, it felt forever. and during the whole process, i felt cold and constantly tensed up. i had to remind myself again and again to relax. relax. relax. it was not much different from how i felt when my dentist drill my teeth during my root canal op. you get the idea. anyway, once the doctor pulled out the scope, he told the nurse to help clear me up. very quickly she wiped my lower body and i was asked to change up and wait outside the room.

i am glad it is over. but for the next 2-3 days, i will experience pain when i pee. so there goes, today i got deflowered.

haha...