blasted my colleague

i seldom burst, but when i burst, things can go really awry. well, i am talking about my temper.

anyway, i blasted at my colleague yesterday - a manager from the operations side of my department. he's a very young manager but has not been a very good team player. since i joined the company, i had been tasked to assist the operations side in doing a lot, and i really mean, a lot of stuff. and whenever i circulate my proposal for change, i will not get any response from him. and everyone in the department had gotten along with the changes i had made. and added to that, there were many many occasions where i kept my cool despite his sarcasm at times. there was a lot of pent up tensions i supposed.

and lately, he started drawing lines and seemed to want to create barriers between his side and mine. and on top of that, he started pushing things back. worst of all, when i send out an email asking for comments for an adjustment of processes, the tone he adopted in his email reply sounded rather hostile. he started to say things like, not trying to draw lines but... and then he would hint quite clearly to me that i should mind my own business instead of trying to change things. and he went to the extent of telling me what i should be focusing on, instead of trying to propose changes to his processes. i was like - wtf, have you not been in the know of what was happening for the last 2 years? have you not understood that i had been doing lotsa stuff you had ignored? and instead of thanking me, you now tell me to mind my own business?

i simply asked him if he knew what his staff was doing, what the shortcomings in current processes were and the materials his staff had been using (which i had been conscientiously updating monthly for the last year plus), and he said no, but added on that he was simply "making a comment" since i asked. i couldn't take his comment and simply told him off. he does not know his staff, what they were doing, what i had been helping out, etc... in another words, he had failed in his leadership. wtf.

anyway, i didn't bother. i simply told him off. he was not happy and so was i. it was not me to do such stuff, but i had had it. enough was enough. of cos i didn't shout at him, but i sounded totally not the usual me (who was always cheerful and joking) that everyone around just kept silent and didn't want to utter a sound. the whole office kept quiet.

wtf...