kancheong

the cantonese word kancheong means anxious (or in chinese 紧张). and that is what i think mum is feeling now.

my niece will be getting married tomorrow. and my eldest sis finally decide to break the news to her. and added to that, my sis told her that she must dress up for the occasion. mum, of cos, being someone who is forever easily excited/ highly excitable, got really worked-up despite the fact that i have prepared her mentally over the last 6 months. and for that matter, i have bought her a new blouse, 2 new pair of shoes etc... then again in the last many months, mum had avoided asking sis about the wedding cos whenever she did so, sis would tell her off. and so during these last many months, mum had been consistently lamenting how sis always scold her and how indignant she felt about being treated such. 

so when sis finally broke the news to her (despite me already preparing her mentally for it over the last 6 months and increasing the frequency of telling her about it last couple of days), she still got super duper kancheong about it... and earlier on, halfway while watching her evening tv serial, she walked into the bedroom and didn't come out. it was strange of her to do this as she had not taken her medication. and when i asked her, she said her whole body ached. hmmm... and after giving her her medication and settling her properly to rest, i told her i would head out for some exercises. 

i returned half and hour later to find her mumbling and chanting. and when i asked her what was she doing, she said she was begging for buddha to cure her aches. she was adamant that something was very wrong with her and she was experiencing the same pains like dad before he died. and she added that regardless of how much more medication she takes, the pain will not go away. it took me a while to coax her to take a tablet. well, of cos, i told her i gave her paracetamol but instead gave her a sleeping pill. 

let's hope she sleeps ok tonight. otherwise, there will be lots to manage tomorrow.

ps: just after i typed this post at 11.45pm, i found mum outside in the living room. she had switched on all the lights, opened all the doors and windows, for some reasons, she left one pair of her panties on the kitchen table, her diaper on the sofa and she had boiled water and made a cup of milo for herself. i sat in the living room sofa as i watched her. she was not happy that i had woken up. after drinking her milo, she went to the kitchen to take her morning medication... managed to stop her after she did her puffs, but before she down all the tablets... would not be good if she had downed the medication considering she had just taken her evening dose 2 hours ago! haiz... i insisted on sitting in the living room unless she retires to bed again and grudgingly she did so. the sky looks like it's really gonna pour big time now, yet she refused to let me close her windows, insisting that it will not rain... looks like its gonna be a long night... but well, i think it will do me a lot of good to just ignore her and let her be for the night.