feeling restless and feeling blah...
have arranged for my mum to be fetched and sent to and from the rehab center daily. and for the next few days, i thought it would be important to oversee the fetching and sending. tomorrow, i will be bringing mum down to wait for the bus. and for the afternoon, i have asked my sis to be around to recieve her when the bus arrives.
then i get all sorts of smses from her asking whether i can arrange for the rehab center bus to bring her up home, whether this or that... thing is, she always tries to push away things like this. while i have time and again tried not to judge her, i find myself getting increasingly impatient with her. everytime she pushes away things like this, her reasons would always be from a very self-centric angle. i am holding back as much as i can.
and i am feeling unhappy. so far, it seemed like my brother has pushed away my mum, and then my eldest sis, and now my second sis. just don't like how things are developing...
and for now, i am feeling very restless. and very blah...
think i am just venting becos i am very hungry now...
ok, time to go for dinner.
have arranged for my mum to be fetched and sent to and from the rehab center daily. and for the next few days, i thought it would be important to oversee the fetching and sending. tomorrow, i will be bringing mum down to wait for the bus. and for the afternoon, i have asked my sis to be around to recieve her when the bus arrives.
then i get all sorts of smses from her asking whether i can arrange for the rehab center bus to bring her up home, whether this or that... thing is, she always tries to push away things like this. while i have time and again tried not to judge her, i find myself getting increasingly impatient with her. everytime she pushes away things like this, her reasons would always be from a very self-centric angle. i am holding back as much as i can.
and i am feeling unhappy. so far, it seemed like my brother has pushed away my mum, and then my eldest sis, and now my second sis. just don't like how things are developing...
and for now, i am feeling very restless. and very blah...
think i am just venting becos i am very hungry now...
ok, time to go for dinner.
3 comments:
No wonder you feel overwhelmed... Caregiving is not easy, especially if you don't get any support.
I am waiting for my hb to return from KL. His flight is at 2200 and right now I am feeling :{
hey, he should be home soon! smile!
:-)
Thanks. I called him when he didn't get home by midnight. Actually he arrived at about 10pm and dashed to office to rush a report out. He thought he could finish soon and then call me but he took a long time.
Anyway I was sure glad he is safe and sound. He is very stressed at work too.
:)
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