haywire mum

was a challenging week at work. and on the personal front, it was equally challenging. mum's paranoia has returned again. and over the week, there were more than enough incidents that suggest that this time round, it was bad. 

for a start, whenever i come home from work this week, the mood would be kinda solemn and moody. i asked the maid if everything was ok and she told me that for reasons unknown, mum would come home from work (the rehab center), watch the tv chinese drama serial, and whenever she disagrees with the actions of any particular character in the show, she would turn her anger towards the maid and scold her. hmmm… added to that, she would go into my room and sleep on the bed, and then she would start to chant and make all sorts of gestures in my room. it was like as though she was trying to exorcise my room.

and one evening when i came back from work, for reasons unknown, second sis dropped by. and as i was cooking, she went into the kitchen and told me mum was behaving weird again. i had suspected it but was kinda surprised second sis brought it up. and she told me mum called her and told her that the maid is now planning to harm her. and to do it, the maid has roped in people from her office (the rehab center) too. and i had been skewing all conversations i have with her about how good rehab centers are since then. 

to make it worst, on thursday, i came back home and noted the maid had started cooking dinner. surprised, i asked her why and she said my mum "ordered" her to do it. and just as she told me, mum walked into the kitchen and said, if the maid cook, i don't want to eat. it took me a while to convince her that i was the one who did the cooking instead. finally, when i asked her why she has started to sleep in my room and why she refused to eat if the cooking was done by the maid, she responded "it's ok, you need not ask. i know the reasons, and that is enough…" it was a hostile respond and she would go into this mood daily. 

and these couple of days too, whenever i wake up, she would raise her voice and demanded to know "why did you came home late last night?" it culminated in this morning when i finally asked her why did she keep asking the same question even though i did not go out at all. and with that, she got angry and started to throw tantrums. and then she raised her voice and said things like "you can go out and don't come back for all i care" "i don't want to control your movement"… she now refuses all food and also refuses to talk to me.

hmmm… would be superbly difficult if at some point, mum starts to avoid heading to the rehab center. and for now, i might just increase the dosage of her medication.