being me!

received an sms from a friend just minutes ago. and he asked "what's this i heard abt this person in your company being sacked for molesting someone?". well, told him i know nothing about it and that if he has news, he should share with me. he replied "no, you tell me! you go find out and tell me, you are resourceful enough to do it i am sure." i replied that i have no interest in finding out such things and that i would rather leave it as it is (not that i am interested in it anyway). then again, it would not be wise of me to do so considering i am also being monitored by my security department. and he replied jokingly that since i am being tracked, i should just leave and be an ops manager in some schools... for that moment, i felt angry. i felt angry that someone out there had wanted me to do something for his own curiosity. i felt angry that despite sounding half-joking, he was insensitive and had demanded of such things knowing jolly well the situation i am in and the complications i had gone through just to stay in my job. i felt angry that he had trivialised my situation. i replied, rather sarcastically - i'd rather talk less. let them continue to track. on my part, earning 3 times the pay of an ops manager compensates for everything. well, of cos i was not serious when i said earning 3 times the pay. he stopped his sms-ing immediately.

sms was perhaps not the best media to sent such sensitive stuff. then again it was just me. i don't like people to demand things of me. if you want, ask politely. i may just do it. and if i turn you down, don't insist. don't insist and tell me i must do this, i must do that... even if i am wrong. i might turn around and bite. just becos i don't feel like doing it.

hmmph!