once a while, like today, i get this feeling that i have lost all my friends. and it's a scary thought. losing friends not by design but by the natural development of things. that over time, with lesser and lesser interactions, people drift, and you eventually loose contact with them.
it's a scary thought. life without friends. for me, a gayman, my friends are my family. my extended family. and this is the same for all glbts i know.
am not sure whether it is due to my being conditioned (self-imposed admittedly) after so long being attached to james who had refused to mix with my friends or a result of being strangled by the commitment i signed not to go to gay places - for it is these places that the define the gay social structure and that allows interaction.
whatever the case, once a while, i am petrified by such thoughts of isolation. for loneliness kills.
it's a scary thought. life without friends. for me, a gayman, my friends are my family. my extended family. and this is the same for all glbts i know.
am not sure whether it is due to my being conditioned (self-imposed admittedly) after so long being attached to james who had refused to mix with my friends or a result of being strangled by the commitment i signed not to go to gay places - for it is these places that the define the gay social structure and that allows interaction.
whatever the case, once a while, i am petrified by such thoughts of isolation. for loneliness kills.
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