turn of events

7am

slept at close to 3am, woke up at 6-ish, changed up and headed to the hospital to check on mum. she was sleeping soundly. i tried to wake her but she couldn't wake up. it was not usual cos she'd be awake by this time usually. the nurse came up to me and said she might have a brain hemorrhage after all. but the nurse qualified that she was not clear of the findings and that only the doctor would be able to give me the correct assessment. seeing mum like that, i knew there was nothing i could do and i left for office.

8.30am

at my usual parking space beside the road, i parked my car and, for that moment, felt totally lost. i thought about the possibility of losing my mum and i just sat in my car and cried. and i decided not to head to office after all. so unglam to head to office with my panda, red and swollen eyes. i drove off and headed to the coffee shop for a quick bite. and as i ate, i noticed a missed call from the hospital. quickly, i finished my food and rushed back to the hospital.

9.15am

i walked into the observation ward and the nurse came up to me. oh, i called you. your mum is awake. i took a look and there she was, she had finally opened her eyes. i called out to her and she could respond a little here and there. the doctors came, and told me they were treating it as a case of bad pneumonia. but the doctors cautioned. her blood pressure is still very low, and she's still not out of the woods yet. she may just still slip off anytime... so…

11am

i had stayed with mum for the last 2-3 hours or so. and through this period i could see her slowly getting better. her blood pressure had increased to a more reasonable level and she was no longer panting. but her face was still a little swollen and she frequently slipped into little naps. i decided to leave her at that time, knowing that my brother and my eldest sister would be visiting her over the lunch hour.

3pm

i had gone for a quick mental blank-out at the swimming pool. and after that i got home, did the laundry and totally knocked out on my bed. woke up at 2.30pm and made my way back to the hospital. she had been transferred to the general ward (from the observation ward). and i was amazed by what i saw. she was sitting up and recognized me when i walked into the ward. and more importantly, she was able to hold a conversation, and her fever had subsided. apparently, she had responded very well to the many injections and antibiotics and apart from slight wheezing, she seemed normal. but she's still on a heavy dose of oxygen. her oxygen saturation collapse very fast when the oxygen was removed. anyway, i spoke with her until my second sis arrived at 5pm. and i decided to take my leave at 5.30pm. was a close shave. been a tense 24 hours. but it seemed like she's ok for now.

7pm

i brought sapphie out for a short run. been a long time since i did that for i couldn't do it when mum was around. anyway, i got a call from second sis. she pre-empt me - don't get angry with what i am going to say ok? and said "mum is still very convinced that you frequently visit the woman that made dad bad. and she said you are planning to kill her" well, with this input, i think she's quite normal now despite her wheezing like crazy! start of the same old sh** again for me!

hahahha!