mum & sleep

this has been a good week despite the fact that i was busy and preoccupied mentally with mum's discharge and health condition… for a start, mum was discharged on monday. and she was a little weak when she was discharged… well, ok, very weak. to the point where she could not take 2 steps or talk a few words without panting like crazy, and had to be put on oxygen.

but through the week, i could see her slowly but surely get stronger. it was also interesting to see how her waking up routines became kind of a reflection of her recovery. on tuesday morning, she did not wake up until about 7am, which was very unusual cos she would usually stir at about 3-4am nightly.  and she looked all groggy and wasted when she finally woke up. it took her quite a while to get up, wash up and eventually dress up. and i had to help her. on wednesday morning, she woke up at 5-plus. i was awaken by the creaking sound of the walking frame she used as she walked out of her room and rushed out to help her. she insisted that i return to sleep saying that i had to work. i refused to unless she did so too. after some grumbling, she went back to bed. the same thing happened on thursday morning. once again, i woke up and helped her. this time round, she decided to walk out to the living room as i made her her morning beverage. while she grumbled about me not having enough sleep, i thought she was secretly happy to be receiving the attention. and this morning, it was interesting. she woke up at 3.45am and she did not use her walking frame. instead she walked slowly to the toilet and washed up. i was awaken by the sound of running water, but decided against walking out to help her. i kept quiet but later decided that i should just call out to her to be careful and walk slowly. i need to tell her that i was awake, but at the same time, impressed upon her that i have confidence in her to manage her walking independently.

well… tonight, i'll sleep with my door open again. let's see how things go tomorrow. if things are ok, i will probably start to close my door through the night again.

:-)