haiyah

everything has been going well for the last month or so and mum seemed very stable. but this evening, her mental issues started appearing again. out of no where, she started talking about how bee's mother is very adept at using black magic and that everyone around her has told her about it...

i almost lost my cool... anyway, i didn't. i was clearly upset nonetheless. it's always times like these that i have to remind myself she is of unsound mind and suffers from anxiety disorders. and i guess the fact that bee's dad's condition has worsened stressed her out significantly...

sighs... everyone is stressed out and i really don't need this additional nonsense from her. but i know i cannot blame her. such beyond-logic thoughts are something that cannot be explained or understood. just need to learn to ignore and move along. but for now, my whole evening is ruinned...

haiyah... suddenly feel so fucking blah!

wtf!

ps: have been following channel 8's nightly mandarin serial cos i totally can understand the challenges that the female lead (xinxin) is going through... my mum has the same anxiety disorders and on top of that, paranoia. it's so draining...