twilight zone

took my anti-depressant (fluvoxamine) last night, the drug was certainly effective. at the point when i laid on my bed, i felt very disturbed. and i heard voices. and i felt people beside me. but i wasn't afraid. it was surreal. i held on to my phone. there was a sense of anticipation, there was a sense of disappointment, there was also a sense of anger, and there was also a sense of resignation. told myself i should go to sleep and after sometime, sleep came. through the night, i felt warm, i was sweating, my stomach was churning, and i tossed and turned. yet i slept on, or at least i thought i did... twilight zone kinda feeling if you know what i mean.

although i woke up at 7-plus, i continued to feel very sedated. through the morning, i felt sleepy, lazy and my mind was blank. i just did not want to think about anything. i just wanted to lie in bed and nua. as per routine, i got up a couple of times to pee, walk the dog, brought my mum out for breakfast and did some basic housework, but frankly, my mind was asleep, and my brain was not working. i was also feeling the effects of the tamsulosin. every movements i made made my heart beat very fast. i had to walk slowly, do things slowly, and execute every movement very deliberately. came back home and quickly went to take a rest on my bed. surfed the net a bit. and soon, i was asleep again.

did some reading in wiki and found that all feeling of dry mouth, funny taste/ smell in my mouth when i woke up, abdominal pains through the night, reduced appetite, sweating at night, etc were all side effects of the fluvoxamine... spoke to a doctor friend and he asked me to half my dosage of medication.

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