reflecting, i think i have this tendency for my medical issues to all happen at the same time whenever i get stressed out. it can be due to family, work, and/ or relationships.
and this was exactly what i went through the last 2 months. it was literally one medical issue after another. in fact, at the rate of things, my blog will start to look like a online journal of someone dying soon. ha!
the last time i had so many medical issues that happened altogether was 7 years ago when i went through the transition of breaking up with james, starting my relationship with bee, called up by my security department for questioning about my sexuality, as well as some other smaller family-related stressors. at that time, i broke my meta-tarsals, went into depression, had epilepsy, had asthma attacks, and so on... and before that, the major bout of (a series of) depressions, medical etc happened in the initial years of my coming out. that was in 1996-98 period. although i did not seek medical help for my depression previously, things eventually sorted itself out after i came to terms with the state of affairs.
reflecting on the past 2 months this time round, i realized that what i had gone through were the same. i saw the same pattern beng played out. and really, the start of the closure of one medical issue after another, and the slow sorting out of issues related to say work, family, etc... i think things could only get better.
need to be optimistic.
if last month was the lowest, the only direction available is upwards.
and from that perspective, it is quite a good thing that i am starting my 2012 on a new positive direction.
:-)
and this was exactly what i went through the last 2 months. it was literally one medical issue after another. in fact, at the rate of things, my blog will start to look like a online journal of someone dying soon. ha!
the last time i had so many medical issues that happened altogether was 7 years ago when i went through the transition of breaking up with james, starting my relationship with bee, called up by my security department for questioning about my sexuality, as well as some other smaller family-related stressors. at that time, i broke my meta-tarsals, went into depression, had epilepsy, had asthma attacks, and so on... and before that, the major bout of (a series of) depressions, medical etc happened in the initial years of my coming out. that was in 1996-98 period. although i did not seek medical help for my depression previously, things eventually sorted itself out after i came to terms with the state of affairs.
reflecting on the past 2 months this time round, i realized that what i had gone through were the same. i saw the same pattern beng played out. and really, the start of the closure of one medical issue after another, and the slow sorting out of issues related to say work, family, etc... i think things could only get better.
need to be optimistic.
if last month was the lowest, the only direction available is upwards.
and from that perspective, it is quite a good thing that i am starting my 2012 on a new positive direction.
:-)
6 comments:
Not too late to realise. Many a time, our physical condition is a reflection of our mental state.
The level of pain may also be magnified many times with a depressed mental state.
Sam
and often many of the issues were not within my control, and almost all related to people.
Choosing to be happy or stressed is well within our control. Of cos it's easier said than done.
Remember to reach out for help when needed. U may not get help as a solution to the problems, but U'll get an avenue to help release the mental stressed.
Hugs
Sam
:-)
I am starting to think that people our age are more prone to depression. Its an awful feeling. I hate it. I am trying to be positive but somethings are difficult to control.
aziz
my first bout started not long after i first came out. if you still remember how i look at that time! ha! yup, awful feeling. just need to bite the bullet and survive through it.
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