stressful period

work issues. mum issues. chinese new year. tomorrow will be getting my biopsy results for my gastroscopy.

and then i got a call from my cousin this evening. my third uncle (my late dad's younger brother) is in critical condition and may not pull through tonight. the doctors will be operating on his anytime now in an attempt to save him. hmmm, it just struck me that in my flustered condition, i forgot to clarify what the op was about. i knew he had some issues with his intestines and he had gone in and out of hospital to get it treated over the last 2 months. and last week he was warded again and since then, he had gone in and out of consciousness. his condition had worsen and doctors had asked the family to be mentally prepared if he fails to pull through tonight.

gonna be challenging managing all these at the same time.

if my uncle leaves us, his wake and funeral would hit right into the chinese new year. and this poses great challenges to me on many fronts. firstly, relationship. my brother is not on good terms with all my relatives and he would be very unhappy if i were to attend anything related to them. so, i would probably do so without telling them. but it would be hard to do so cos of cny. secondly, my mum. she's not mentally sound now given her stress over the coming cny. to tell her of this would be superbly stressful and she'll probably go bonkers big time. but if i don't tell her, it would be terribly difficult to excuse myself to attend the wake or the funeral, or even if my uncle survives, to visit him at the hospital. thirdly, religious reasons. the 8th day of the new lunar year is the celestial god's birthday and my family commemorate this day by offering prayers on that day. this is a very huge event and given the auspicious and religious nature of this event (referred to as "red-event"), it would be taboo for anyone commemorating this event to be involved or to attend any "white-event" (funerals, wakes, or any event that is inauspicious in nature etc).

hmmm... kinda trapped from all angles. my cousin will keep me posted if there's any updates. for me now, i think i'll sleep over it. let's address the issues one by one when it happens.