Monday, 31 January 2011

taking leave

tomorrow is the first time i am taking leave since starting work...

heh heh...

picking poo

well, until today, i'm still picking up the shit of the person i took over. sighs...

Sunday, 30 January 2011

mm and the gay issue

been reading quite a bit about the gay community discussing about how mm lee views homosexuality. and there was certainly a lot of split topics and useless blabber, as well as speculation about why he said all these things. and frankly, i find it very tiring to read these blabbers, and many a times, very unconstructive and downright stupid comments.

but apart from the many useless and often very stupid comments, i guess the social discourse is good for the society as a whole. and i do sense a strong desire by the gay community to want to seek societal acceptance. i suppose it is important to many. for me, regardless of whether the local authorities are gonna accept gays or not, it is not going to change anything. i am gay and i am perfectly happy with who i am and what i am and nothing is gonna change how i live my life. 377a or not.

flu season

the papers reported that singapore is experiencing a flu epidemic currently. well, epidemic or not, all i know is that i am feeling a little under the weather currently. have a little runny nose and really wishing for a break from work...

looking forward to this coming short workweek.

gay sex bunnies

saw these bunnies at the changi airport ntuc store. i looked at the figurines and immediately concluded that it must be made in china cos only chinese - as in china chinese - writes the 'r' like 'y'... and so, the word 'garden' becomes 'gay den'... and this gives a whole new meaning to the idea that gay men are sex crazy bunnies...

ha ha ha...

nude tanning


i miss the good old days when one can go to the isolated beach at fort road to tan in the nude.

well, of cos, i was referring to the infamous gay beach of singapore... and frankly speaking, i thought the whole gay beach thing was blown out of proportion by some attention-seeking people and journalists. the people i knew who tanned there regularly did so discreetly and hidden from the public. but well... i supposed there were a couple of people who screwed things up for the rest of us.

sighs...

but yup, i do miss the place lots. it was one of the only place where i could escape to. away from the discriminating and stifling world.

picture from http://kim-thenextphase.blogspot.sg/2011/05/right-to-bare.html

screwed up finances

i have worked like crazy for the last 7 months and have been promoted in dec 2010. yet, i think there is something very wrong about my expenses or the way i have planned my finances. over these 7 months, i have not realized any savings. instead, i had dug in deeper into my savings… and if this were to go on, it could only mean that i would soon be borrowing money to pay my income tax!

what is happening!?!

hmmph!

wet wet end of tiger year

it’s been raining crazy past 2 weeks and today it had been raining cats and dogs since morning. think the weather is going a little cranky. feng shui people will probably blame it on the change of zodiac sign from the ferocious tiger to the docile, gentle rabbit. and the scientists will probably say it is due to global warming la la la… whatever it is, one can either see it positively as it can be great for snuggling and lazing in bed, or see the weather as a great screw-up for outdoor plans like suntanning, games etc.

schedule for cny 2011

was initially thinking of heading overseas for a short break over the cny period. afterall, i have not taken a break from my work since i started working in june last year and frankly speaking, i am rather exhausted now. but before i can even go about planning for it, i get people texting me – come over 2nd day cny ok? come over 3rd day cny ok? etc… and so before i know it, my schedule for cny dinners from cny eve to 4th day has been fully booked.

and oh, this is gonna be an interesting 4th day cny. i will be meeting up with tim eventually! looking forward to the meeting.

heh heh…

new year, new wishes, new friends, what a great start to the year!

cny preparations 2011

this year, i do not feel the mood for cny at all! in fact, i didn’t even realize cny is just round the corner. it is such a non-event for me this year. this is such a great contrast compared to last year where i spent almost a month cleaning the house and preparing for it. heh heh… i guess it is also due to my pre-occupation with my work that cny is such a low key thing for me this time round.

the spring cleaning was done over 2 weekends. and even then, it was merely a touch and go thing. so unlike last year where everything was literally turned inside out, upside down and wiped, cleaned, washed and dustered. then again, it could be that due to last year’s great clean up that i need not do so much this year…

but i reckoned – the day will come and before you know it, it will be over. so… what’s the big fuss right? if cny is about family get-together and bridging bonds, then spring cleaning is about keeping things clean and hygienic. so, from this perspective, i think i have not gone very far…

eye bags

i was talking to karstan last week and he told me about how a dermatologist had used liquid nitrogen to remove a wart on his leg. the conversation drifted to plastic surgery. and i shared with him that i had considered going for surgery to have my eye bags removed. but the reasons that had stopped me from doing so was firstly the cost and secondly whether i want to cross the imaginary line of resorting to plastic surgery for vanity reasons. my eye bags really make me look like a panda and it really makes me look very tired and unpresentable at work. i initially had the same dilemma when it comes to lasik previously, but i had overcome the logic of vanity cos lasik also carries the practicality and cost reasons. firstly with lasik, one can go about doing sports without the hassle of the specs slipping off one’s nose. thus, it contributes to health. secondly, lasik is relatively cheaper these days and over the long time, using contact lenses would actually be more expensive given the need to buy saline, cleanser, cost of contact lenses etc… but for the record, i have yet to undergo lasik. if i do, i need to undergo a procedure that needs to correct presbyopia too! ha ha…

so… should i get my eye bags remove?

hmmm…

my phone

my samsung phone has also gone bonkers. you see, since last week, i was not able to type the letter “a”. the touchpad was no longer sensitive and when i touch the letter “a”, the letter “s” would appear. i thought it was the letter “a” problem. and so i tried turning it to the side to use the keypad on the landscape manner. this time round, i could type “a” but instead couldn’t type “m”. it was then that i concluded that the problem is a keypad sensitivity issue and not an issue associated with any letters.

thus far, i have been keeping my work and personal-use segregated for work and personal use respectively. the only personal numbers i called using my work phone were my family members and bee. but since i got this keypad problem, i have started to use my work-phone for friends. then again, i have restricted it to a very small numbers of them.

so now, my next question is – should i expand my work-phone use to all my personal friends too? or should i buy a new personal phone?

hmmmm…

mum had a fall

mum had a fall on the early morning of 27 jan, thursday. i was in the middle of a workshop when i received a call from my brother late morning. he told me mum was complaining of body aches and chest pains and wanted to see the doctor. he called the ambulance from work despite mum’s insistence to take the mrt. after he hung up, i called mum to talk to her. she sounded normal. but i was not about to take any chance too, and i convinced her that the ambulance was a better option cos we could never be too sure if her pains would deteriorate quickly on the way there. i had to do a presentation in the pm and assessing that she would be fine, i let the domestic help accompany her to the hospital in the ambulance.

the maid called me back in the late pm that mum was under observation and that she had undergone some blood tests and chest x-rays. i had given my presentation and decided that i should visit mum. at the hospital, i learned of how mum fell.

it was about 5am when she felt she needed to go to the loo. she woke up and made her way to the toilet. the domestic help, who slept beside her bed, was awakened and helped her. but as she was about to enter the toilet, she slipped and fell. and well, it was lucky that she fell onto the domestic help (although of cos, it was not a good thing for the domestic help). the domestic help screamed for my brother but as he was in the other room, he didn’t hear her. mum recovered from the fall, managed to move aside and was helped back to bed. she told the domestic help not to tell my brother about the incident as she was afraid my brother would chide her for getting out of bed. by late morning, the pain began to build up and soon enough, my mum had difficulty breathing… the rest was history.

by the time i got to the hospital, mum’s x-ray and blood test results were out. she was found to be ok. she was given some painkiller and medication to help her clear her stomach gas and told to head home to rest. it was a scare for me, but luckily, things turned out ok. and of cos, i had the domestic help to thank for buffering the fall. if mum had not fallen on her, i believe the outcome would have been a lot more dangerous.

blogging on another computer

i have lessened my blogging considerably lately as my keyboard has gone crazy. and this is no good cos at the rate things are going, i will probably end up loosing the momentum and loosing the interest to blog altogether.

and this is not good for me cos through blogging, i get to clarify my thoughts and in the process learn more about myself as well as the things i am doing currently. you see, i am not a person who can think on my feet as well as i want to. i need to take a pause, reflect through the issues and then critically sieve out the important things. it’s just the way i am wired up. reflecting and writing things down allow me to draw connections and see things at a higher logic levels. it is my way of thinking through things critically. it helps. so… blogging helps learn about my own life and how i learn from it.

and i adopt the same approach when it comes to work too. and i can see that every time do that, the things that i conclude has a lot more depth and that people cannot refute. and to me, this is an important outcome. it compensates for me keeping quiet most of the times. and no, in case i gave the wrong impression, i do not blog about work work per se. at work, i achieve the same outcome by writing things down and penning my thoughts (even as simple as writing it down on ppt slides). it helps me connect things and see them at organizational levels, which i thought made more impact and relevance to people up there rather than blabbering about things at my level (which may sound rather self-centric and turn management off).

i guess this is one of the nature of introverted persons like me. typical of the i-type personality defined by the mbti personality types…

ok, i think i better stop here before i blabber further.

heh heh...

ps: for the record, i am writing this blog on another laptop using microsoft word and transferring it to my personal computer to upload into my blog! heh heh… i don’t believe in doing personal stuff on work computers. not very correctly ethically. and of cos not to mention what or who will get to read what i write if my work computer gets into another person’s hands…

Saturday, 22 January 2011

new start @ workplace

the person i took over had moved out finally after more than a month plus of squatting in the office. and during this time, he had constantly created quite a bit of issues in the office. i had initially thought it was unintentional, but after seeing it happen again and again, i am now rather convinced that it was deliberate. and i see 2 trends.

firstly, it was clear that he was doing so as a last effort to create an image of a great boss and to discredit me. and i say this becos i learned from my staff that he kept telling them "if i were still your boss, i would...". as for me, i couldn't be bothered. the fact is that, he is no longer the boss and as the boss now, i do what i think is right and i sense all my staff are behind me in what i am doing. secondly, he is trying to break up the unit. and he did soby cleverly capitalizing on the character weaknesses and insecurities of some of my staff to create morale problems both at the individual-level and causing rift and tensions between individuals. and it was clear it was not going down with a couple of my staff. so it was certainly a great relief for me to see him move out.

frankly, i sense a heave of relief amongst many of my staff to see him go. i feel sad for him - why can't he get over his insecurities? why must he go about destroying what he built up over the pass few years? well... with his moving out, it is time for healing to start. i have much to do to win hearts and to get people on the generative mode of things rather than dwell in the destructive and unproductive mode. they have been suppressed for far too long. i need to get them out of the shell.

he336

it's been a while since i've written any entry in this blog. and apart from time factor, one other factor is the fact that i continue to face issues with my keyboard. as of now, it has gone crazy. for certain keys to work, i've had to press the "function" key in order to get it to work. so, my title that is supposed to say "hello" ended up looking like "he336"...

i suspect there is something i can do to get this sorted out but i am too lazy to find out.

so...

Tuesday, 11 January 2011

chilly winds

the weather these days are weird. the winds are very chilly. well, not that i am complaining. over the weekend, i was walking with bee along the east coast road on our way to dinner and we experienced a strong gust of wind blowing. we were like brrrrrrrrrrr... for that moment, it felt like we were walking along those streets along some taiwanese night markets.

nice.

:-)

Sunday, 9 January 2011

vcds

bee has been hooked onto his tv series non-stop these few days... the series is a nice one no doubt and i do also enjoy it. but to be hooked onto it for a long durations and at times compromising on daily routines/ chores and sleeping times are things i will never be comfortable with. lots of thoughts about this. but shall not talk about it further. sighs...

moderation. moderation. moderation.

anyway, i think it is time to start the annual rountine of spring cleaning.

...

Saturday, 8 January 2011

有一天我会



蔡淳佳 Joi Chua - 有一天我会... this song brings me back to apr 2005. the year i was outed by my organization...

sighs...

the importance of numbers

well, not just numbers, but rather, any number.

you see, if i recall correctly, since early december, my keyboard started giving my problems. i couldn't type the number "3". in fact, i still cannot. hmmm, ok, shall explain later, how i got this figure here in this paragraph. anyway, let me go back to early dec 2010. it was one nice evening when i opened up laptop and tried to login to do some internet banking. and much as i tried, i simply couldn't get in. after some failed attempts, i found out that i simply couldn't type the number "3". and so, smart alec me tried to repair my keyboard... and next thing i knew, my number "3" button dropped off. hmmm, i had to get it back onto the keyboard again and so, in my attempts to understand how it is attached, i played with my number "5" button... next thing i knew, my number "5" button dropped off as well. arghhhhh... i ended up with 2 number buttons falling out of my laptop keyboard and i couldn't get them back in... damned it...

i gave up eventually. and so till today my keyboard still did not have these 2 numbers. well, i told myself i could simply get by without these two numbers... and so whenever i tried my internet banking or any transactions that required me to key in a number "3", i'd have to start a new tab to find some webpage that has the number "3" so that i can copy and paste. such a trick worked for some sites although for most banks, it didn't allow cut and paste for passwords. when i faced with such a situation, i simply press "refresh" to get a new code... heh heh...

it was rather inconvenient but i guessed i got by rather well over the month of december. and then, this week, i started facing the problems of not being able to use my number "1". and this couldn't do for me. my pin for my first entry into my windows has a number "1"... arghhhh... and so, i ended up not being to use my computer for a couple of days... yesterday, i finally went to challenger to get a usb number pad. heh heh... and so, i am now back in business.

and all these hassle reminded me of one of our most cliche phrase - that we often take things for granted. and we only treasure them and appreciate them when they are not there.

and this, also applies to numbers. in my case, number "3" (and later, number "1").

:-)

Friday, 7 January 2011

first week 2011 @ work

whew... it's the end of the first week of 2011. it had been a terribly busy week. well, that's actually nothing new. but this week seemed to have flew by so quickly. and frankly, this week marked quite a few firsts for me.

for a start, i had my first experience of representing my company for a business meeting. it was rather interesting and happened rather unexpectedly. there was a company that wanted to explore having some trainings overseas and asked to speak to a rep from my company. in the end, i ended up talking to him with a couple of other personnel from my company. certainly, it was a good learning experience. and judging by the rate of emails coming in, i guessed i have a lot more opportunities to do the same...

this week, i also spent quite a bit of energy interviewing people. for the record, i interviewed 3 persons consecutively last afternoon. it was really tiring and mentally draining. and certainly, it was an interesting experience cos all 3 candidates were significantly different from each other in terms of qualifications and character. and frankly, i had fun despite feeling exhausted after the interviews.

and for the first time, i completed a business proposal myself. it was a simple proposal. nonetheless, i felt a sense of achievement cos i managed to do it by myself. i finally submitted it this evening. last but not least, i managed to review and update my business budget for the coming year. difficult and detailed process. but yes, i did it... heh heh...

i am glad the weekend is here.

:-)

Wednesday, 5 January 2011

artistic snake


and i thought this was very artistically done. what do you think?

:-)

Sunday, 2 January 2011

my travels

the following captures an updated list of cities and countries i have travelled to in my life up till dec 2010. broadly, i'd say i had travelled to most contingent except africa. for mainland europe, i had only travelled to switzerland. there are many more areas that i have not visited. and it has always been my wish to also visit the wonders of the world including the grand canyon, the pyramids of egypt, the niagara falls and if i can afford, the ancient cities of the aztecs in south america (machu picchu)... :-)

2010
may - malaysia (jb)
oct - indonesia (bintan)
nov - indonesia (jakarta)
dec - united arab emirates (abu dhabi, dubai)

2009
jun/jul - australia (perth, cervantes, margaret river, augusta, walpole, denmark, pemberton, manjimup, albany, hyden, corrigin, york, fremantle, joondalup)
jul - malaysia (malacca)
sep - malaysia (malacca)
nov - malaysia (jb)

2008
jun - thailand (phuket)
oct - malaysia (malacca, kuala lumpur)
dec - malaysia (cameron highlands, malacca)

2007
apr - malaysia (malacca)
apr - china (beijing)
jun - australia (perth)
aug - vietnam (hanoi, haphong)
aug - indonesia (jakarta, bandung)
dec - china (shanghai)

2006
apr - malaysia (kl)
jun - australia (sydney)
aug - thailand (bangkok)
sep-oct - indonesia (jakarta, bandung, lembang)
oct - thailand (bangkok)
dec - china (hong kong)

2005
feb - thailand (bangkok)
mar - malaysia
may - thailand (bangkok)
jun - indonesia (bintan)
jul - indonesia (bintan)
sep - indonesia (bintan)
oct - malaysia (kl)
nov - malaysia (jb, malacca)
nov - indonesia (bintan)
dec - taiwan (taipei)

2004
feb - taiwan (kaoshiung)
mar - taiwan (kaoshiung)
jun-dec - states (whole of florida, new york, chicago / illinois, etc)
dec - china (shanghai, hangzhou)

2003
jun - australia (sydney)
sep-oct - taiwan (taipei)
dec - s korea (seoul, sorat, incheon)

2002
jun - england (london, oxford, stratford upon avon, leeds, manchester, scarborough, windermere, etc)

2001
mar - states (california [la, sfo], new york)
may - taiwan (whole)
may - malaysia
jul - states (san diego)
dec - malaysia

2000
jun - australia (sydney)
dec - indonesia (bintan)

1999
feb - indonesia (jember)
may - england (london, brighton)
jun - malaysia
oct - japan (tokyo)

1998
mar - malaysia
jun - malaysia
sep - new zealand (christchurch)
nov - new zealand (christchurch, auckland)

1997
jun - indonesia (bintan, batam)
jun - thailand (bangkok, pattaya)
nov - switzerland (zurich, lucerne), israel (jerusalem)

pre-1997
lots of places but mainly in asia. these include east and west malaysia (lost count), taiwan (lost count), hong kong (twice?), australia brisbane, sydney, melbourne (1994), thailand (bangkok, kanchanaburi, chiangmai, chiangrai) (lost count), indonesia (bintan, batam, jember, surabaya) (trice?), brunei (lost count), etc etc etc...