1.5 months

i am now 1.5 months into my post-service life. given my savings and my retirement benefits, i reckon i should be able to sustain for about a year and a half. but as it stands, i am beginning to feel bored. perhaps it is a good time to look back and review what i have done and where i am heading. there are 3 key things that i think i need to relook as i progress. these are, in no order of priority, my personal life, my family and my career.

when i first left service, i had told myself that for my personal life, i would dedicate the immediate few months to myself to rest, to consolidate and to catch up with friends. in terms of my family, i had also made the commitment to spent more time with my mum before i start looking for a job. as for my next career, i had decided not to pressure myself and to only look for a job say in end of the year. this was also in view of the economic uncertainly and the not-too-rosy employment market out there.

so, where am i now? hmmm, let's take a look.

my personal life - in these last few weeks, i have made quite a fair bit of efforts in myself and my friends. i have made some good progress in consolidating my stuff - investments, insurance etc. for myself, i made some good progress in my journey as a buddhist by taking refuge, reviewing my health, check-ups, etc. as for key commitments in terms of time and cash, these include committing to a chiropratic treatment plan, getting a new extra-firm mattress and getting a new laptop. i see such purchases as investments. these are necessities. chiropractic for my 10-yr back and neck problems, laptop for my job-hunting and to replace my 5 year desktop pc, mattress to stabilize my weak back and to replace my last one that had served me well for the past 10 years. i had also considered travelling. give myself a good overseas break to recharge. may be head to states, or to europe, simply to indulge in life's luxuries. hmmm... have not really done all these other than a very short trip to melaka with kwang. that's me perhaps, really want to enjoy but when i see the costs involved, i pulled back. heh...

as for family life, i had also consciously made time for my mum and of cos, my dog, sapphie. and this perhaps was one of the best thing that i have done and will continue to do to my best abilities. as for bee, he has been busy with work and studies. no easy solution to this and thus, i think i will leave it as status quo.

in terms of my career, i have not put sufficient thoughts in terms of recharting my future career. not that i can't, but i certainly did not plan to do so. as i mentioned, i wanted to give myself time to rest, recharge and consolidate. but frankly, after 1.5 months, i am beginning to worry if my time-off will make me lose my desire to want to work. and this is making me question the wisdom on wanting to rest, recuperate, consolidate for the `next couple of months'. perhaps i should start to review this aspect and to relook at my timeline for job-hunting. i need to think about it more and do something about it.

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