of rainbows, black & white and everything in between

there has been a recent discussion and debate on homosexuality again. and i do see many people sharing their views about the issue. some are for it, some are against it. and of cos from their individual perspectives (be it from a moral, religious etc angle), everything that is said is correct and justified and i respect them for it. i recognise that in any society, there will always be a whole range of views about anything and everything. and that there will always be a divide. there will always be individuals that chose to impose their values on other individuals through public policies, individuals who chose to take things in their own hands and be biased towards homosexuals/ heterosexuals, or for that matter, homosexuals against/ for homosexuality, heterosexuals against/ for homosexuality, etc. it's never ending... how conservative or liberal a person is and his sexuality are two different dimensions and there are different permutations. there are no right or wrong views. it is a matter of whose perspective these views are being discussed from and to what degree one wants to add qualifiers to his view. eg (and very very crudely) a cock cannot enter an anus... oh, unless, the anus is that of a female, and for that matter, a willing female, and yes, a female deemed an adult, la la la... where to end?... ultimately, what has not change are the cock and anus...

so what is homosexuality? what is a homosexual? is it a state of mind? or an act of same-sex sex? or is it based on observable behaviour? it seems like the definition is not that clearly defined afterall (have extracted how wiki has defined it below... follow the links)...

as for me, all i know is that i am gay, i love men, i am sexually attracted to men, i enjoy sex with men. i do not find women sexually attractive, and i cannot even imagine myself having sex with a woman; for the longest time in my life, i had struggled with my sexuality, have hated myself, tried to make sense of my struggles and eventually came to terms with myself at age 30. i have since grown, self-acceptance comes self-love. no straight person can understand and appreciate what i went through during those years of self-struggles and the process of coming out. it's like having to unlearn everything you thought you knew and to relearn everything all over again. i am happy the way i am now and i will live my life the way i like... and to my best.

as for my position in the society, let's put it this way, i will respect everyone and their right to exist. i will be a responsible person who respects and would do no harm to another fellow human being. i also respect the majority's views and will not conduct myself in a manner that would impose on their comfort. and in return, i do sincerely wish for them NOT to intrude into my private spaces. what i do in my privacy is a matter between me and my partner. no one can dictate who i sleep or have sex with. i have mention this before and i say it again - if i wanna screw, i screw, if i wanna get fucked, i get fucked, if i wanna suck, i suck, if i wanna get sucked, i get sucked... let's not be so naive as to pretend these things don't happen. it happens between 2 human beings, regardless of whether they are homosexual or heterosexual. for me, no public ruling is gonna stop me from doing these acts of basic instincts.

i am no activist and don't pretend to be one... all i know is that i am a person who goes about being myself and tries to convince people around me to judge me for what i am and what i am capable of not by my sexuality. and hopefully, through this awareness, come to accept homosexuals in general as the same as that of any other heterosexuals. and if by that, i am branded a passive activist - so be it... ;-)

just be happy...

Definition of Homosexuality from Wikipedia

Homosexuality can refer to both sexual behavior and sexual attraction between people of the same sex or to a sexual orientation. When describing a sexual orientation, it refers to enduring sexual and romantic attraction toward others of the same sex, but does not necessarily involve sexual behavior.[1]