weekdays, i work in the day and bring mum out at night. weekends, i sleep most of the days, bring mum out in evenings and by the time i come home, i would be rather exhausted and would not head out anymore. and the cycle repeats. although bringing mum out has become a routine and not difficult, i am beginning to feel the toll on me... it is taking it's toll on my personal life. i hardly take dinners with bee now. and he prefers not to take dinner with me and mum. added to that, he has to manage his parent's illness and comes over only very late at night on some nights of the week. and when he comes over, i would be preparing to sleep, and he would play with his computer while i sleep. so...
of course, the bright side of things is that she is mentally a lot more stabilized and giving me less tensions. the attention given to her had helped to give her the security she needs. and while i could sense her refusal to change her mentality about people around her, she has shown a lot less stress as a result of her paranoia. well, of course, i could still sense and see her fears although she has not verbalized it. for example, despite being more open to going to my bro's place, she is still insistent on not eating the food my sis-in-law or the domestic help prepared.
sighs...
of course, the bright side of things is that she is mentally a lot more stabilized and giving me less tensions. the attention given to her had helped to give her the security she needs. and while i could sense her refusal to change her mentality about people around her, she has shown a lot less stress as a result of her paranoia. well, of course, i could still sense and see her fears although she has not verbalized it. for example, despite being more open to going to my bro's place, she is still insistent on not eating the food my sis-in-law or the domestic help prepared.
sighs...
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