this week, for that matter, the recent few weeks, were very interesting.
it seemed like the pass is slowly coming back to me. first, it was khoon seng, then it was my secondary school friends, and then two days ago, bee bee and i managed to meet up and catch up with justin and his partner frank. it's amazing how things had changed yet remained the same... changed in that we have all grown older, signs of age has appeared - not nec the appearance of wrinkles, but the appearance of a certain maturity in the face, in the way we talk, in the way we communicate, in the content of our communication. yet have remained the same. same in the familiarity of the person, in the familiarity of the character, the thoughts, and the connection.
kinda interesting few weeks. and it made me search for artefacts of my past. old photos, old memorabilia, school badges, exercises books, report cards... somehow, the incidences that happened twenty thirty years ago suddenly seemed so recent. i could still remember my handwriting. the old notes that i wrote for myself, the old biology exercise book and the drawing of cells - xylem, phloem, parenchyma cells, palisade mesophyll, and so on. and the photos. i could almost see, feel, smell and touch... experience the whole era all over again!
and i thought to myself. why am i going through this? why made me do this? and for that matter, it seemed so uncanny and coincidental that those i re-connected with expressed the same thoughts and experiences of reestablishing connections with their old mates! and i could only conclude that perhaps this has something to do with age. argh! sighs of middle age? in the most recent email khoon seng wrote to me, he expressed certain regret for not focusing enough on people around him when he looked back. and this made me think that perhaps age is not the real reason. could it be the search for self-fulfillment?
i'll have to reflect on this further...
it seemed like the pass is slowly coming back to me. first, it was khoon seng, then it was my secondary school friends, and then two days ago, bee bee and i managed to meet up and catch up with justin and his partner frank. it's amazing how things had changed yet remained the same... changed in that we have all grown older, signs of age has appeared - not nec the appearance of wrinkles, but the appearance of a certain maturity in the face, in the way we talk, in the way we communicate, in the content of our communication. yet have remained the same. same in the familiarity of the person, in the familiarity of the character, the thoughts, and the connection.
kinda interesting few weeks. and it made me search for artefacts of my past. old photos, old memorabilia, school badges, exercises books, report cards... somehow, the incidences that happened twenty thirty years ago suddenly seemed so recent. i could still remember my handwriting. the old notes that i wrote for myself, the old biology exercise book and the drawing of cells - xylem, phloem, parenchyma cells, palisade mesophyll, and so on. and the photos. i could almost see, feel, smell and touch... experience the whole era all over again!
and i thought to myself. why am i going through this? why made me do this? and for that matter, it seemed so uncanny and coincidental that those i re-connected with expressed the same thoughts and experiences of reestablishing connections with their old mates! and i could only conclude that perhaps this has something to do with age. argh! sighs of middle age? in the most recent email khoon seng wrote to me, he expressed certain regret for not focusing enough on people around him when he looked back. and this made me think that perhaps age is not the real reason. could it be the search for self-fulfillment?
i'll have to reflect on this further...
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