this morning when i woke up, i saw an sms from the temple asking me if i could go down to conduct a class. apparently the teacher that was supposed to teach, had backed out last minute. hmmm... it was quite a surprise for me cos it was a combined class as another teacher couldn't make it and that this teacher had just replied on friday that she would be able to conduct a combined class. the sms sent to me indicated that she had to work. hmmm... hmmm... hmmm... frankly, for a moment, i was in a dilemma cos i was worried about the students. but it was such a short moment's notice and i had plans made. furthermore, i had already told the people i would be stopping my teaching.
i weighed the pros and cons. my sister-in-law had told me yesterday she'd bought fish head to cook for me and that my mum had already told me i should be there early for lunch. having me sit with her for lunch is something she'd look forward to weekly. hmmm... well, i could call them and tell them they should go on without me, i thought. but if i were to do that, it would put to waste all the preparations and the cooking, and disappoint people at home. but on the other hand, if i did not turn up to relief the teacher, the students would be "teacherless" and that wouldn't be nice. hmmm... difficult decision.
in the end, i remembered what the advisor told us before - if you have second thoughts about coming, i'd rather you do not. i'd rather you come wholeheartedly rather than come with and iffy heart. ok ok, she did not say it like that. but you got the idea. remembering this, i replied the temple i couldn't help them. i reconciled that they would be able to manage even if it means combining 3 class into one, or for that matter, for a perm staff to hold the fort for this week.
well, you may laugh at me for being caught in a dilemma over such seemingly trivial stuff. but frankly to me, having weekly time with my mum is something that cannot be replaced. and i recalled previously, some teachers had also used similar commitments not to turn up for class... i am no longer a volunteer, and so, i should not feel so guilty about rejecting the request.
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i weighed the pros and cons. my sister-in-law had told me yesterday she'd bought fish head to cook for me and that my mum had already told me i should be there early for lunch. having me sit with her for lunch is something she'd look forward to weekly. hmmm... well, i could call them and tell them they should go on without me, i thought. but if i were to do that, it would put to waste all the preparations and the cooking, and disappoint people at home. but on the other hand, if i did not turn up to relief the teacher, the students would be "teacherless" and that wouldn't be nice. hmmm... difficult decision.
in the end, i remembered what the advisor told us before - if you have second thoughts about coming, i'd rather you do not. i'd rather you come wholeheartedly rather than come with and iffy heart. ok ok, she did not say it like that. but you got the idea. remembering this, i replied the temple i couldn't help them. i reconciled that they would be able to manage even if it means combining 3 class into one, or for that matter, for a perm staff to hold the fort for this week.
well, you may laugh at me for being caught in a dilemma over such seemingly trivial stuff. but frankly to me, having weekly time with my mum is something that cannot be replaced. and i recalled previously, some teachers had also used similar commitments not to turn up for class... i am no longer a volunteer, and so, i should not feel so guilty about rejecting the request.
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