made a comment in stan's blog when he wrote abt remembering someone he had lost and my comment went something like that 3 days back:
stan, took me 3 years before finally deleting everything - email, msn, blog, etc. but i eventually did. out of sight helps to make it out of mind. altho i must say that's not the real solution. the real solution is to move on totally and break the few heart-strings that still refuses to break. but deleting helps. a lot.
for me, impossible to erase things after 7 yrs. and all the things still in my hse. well... still, deleting them off makes me less irrational (like loggin in and off msn like u... :), like cyber stalking, like...).
move on. and the clearest sign that you've move on will be when u can think back, smile and/or laugh about it, and imagine how you could possibly be so (pse fill in yourself) to behave like what you did :)
j
today, while driving to work, the radio dj was cajoling listeners to sms in titles of songs that made them cry... and naturally as per all faithful listeners, the text messages came in... soon enough someone text in pearl jam's `last kiss'... and when the song played, tears started to swell in my eyes. memories came back. for that moment, in my car, i was transported back in time. despite the busy morning traffic, it felt like i was in the early 2000s again. and james was beside me. and familiar clips started ringing in my head... i started to hear songs by tlc (scrub), macy gray (i try), whitney houston (my love is your love), and so on...
stan had described his experience as that of being hit by a tsunami... i think it is perhaps easier to call it an incurable addiction. it never leaves your body. it stays and remain dormant and once a while, it creates internal chaos within you... anyway, soon enough, i snapped myself out of it and got myself composed. re-focused back onto the road, wiped off my tears and continued my journey. i am still wondering if i could ever be normal friends with james again.
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stan, took me 3 years before finally deleting everything - email, msn, blog, etc. but i eventually did. out of sight helps to make it out of mind. altho i must say that's not the real solution. the real solution is to move on totally and break the few heart-strings that still refuses to break. but deleting helps. a lot.
for me, impossible to erase things after 7 yrs. and all the things still in my hse. well... still, deleting them off makes me less irrational (like loggin in and off msn like u... :), like cyber stalking, like...).
move on. and the clearest sign that you've move on will be when u can think back, smile and/or laugh about it, and imagine how you could possibly be so (pse fill in yourself) to behave like what you did :)
j
today, while driving to work, the radio dj was cajoling listeners to sms in titles of songs that made them cry... and naturally as per all faithful listeners, the text messages came in... soon enough someone text in pearl jam's `last kiss'... and when the song played, tears started to swell in my eyes. memories came back. for that moment, in my car, i was transported back in time. despite the busy morning traffic, it felt like i was in the early 2000s again. and james was beside me. and familiar clips started ringing in my head... i started to hear songs by tlc (scrub), macy gray (i try), whitney houston (my love is your love), and so on...
stan had described his experience as that of being hit by a tsunami... i think it is perhaps easier to call it an incurable addiction. it never leaves your body. it stays and remain dormant and once a while, it creates internal chaos within you... anyway, soon enough, i snapped myself out of it and got myself composed. re-focused back onto the road, wiped off my tears and continued my journey. i am still wondering if i could ever be normal friends with james again.
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