I came home early from work last afternoon totally exhausted. I headed straight to my bed and just collapsed in it, whole body still wet from my perspiration from the hot afternoon sun. I fell into a deep momentary sleep, or more appropriately, a nap, although I was struggling to keep awake. It was just not normal for me to do afternoon naps but I was just too exhausted. After what might have been a 5-min sleep, I woke up, and in my drowsy and confused state, I called out “Ma!...”. I thought my mum was watching tv in the living room. The realisation that my mum died 3-plus years ago sank in as I slowly gain consciousness. It was not a good feeling. I felt really sad.
Some things just do not leave your subconscious.
Sighs.
Hi Jeffrey,
ReplyDeleteOn the other hand, some things just do not leave our subconscious.
Maybe you should have accepted the nap as a gift? Dreams can allow our memories to express and your mum could have had a visit. If that was your need.
Best regards, Edwin
Hi Edwin
ReplyDeletePerhaps so. I guess I was just coming down with a flu and I’m this state of between “neither here nor there” (not healthy and not sick), the state of mind could be a little weak. But I admit - I don’t think I’ll ever let go of the memories of my mum.
:-)
Jeffrey