deteriorating eyesight & uncledom

i wore glasses over the past week as i had conjunctivitis. it was not easy and i had lots of issues seeing things clearly, particularly when at work where i had to face my laptop. this time round, the level of discomfort and blurness was like no other times i had previously experienced. it seemed like my presbyopia has deteriorated suddenly over the course of the week.

and so, i decided to get my eyes checked by my optician. after describing the condition to him, he patiently when through, point by point, with me about the tests and my queries about presbyopia and the type of correction available. and the half-hour long tests concluded that my presbyopia has indeed deteriorated to the point where i needed glasses for near reading (200 degrees), and my myopia has actually improved (reduction of 50 and 25 degrees for my left and right eyes respectively) and the discovery that i also have astigmatism for both my eyes (100 degrees).

after weighing the pros and cons of making a pair of correction glasses vs keeping to my current lenses, i decided to proceed to make a pair of progressive lens glasses. been told it should last me minimally 2 years and i will probably need to review the presbyopia again by then. frankly, i consider myself late when it comes to presbyopia. every single person i know, both family and friends, require some form of correction by the time they reach their early-40s. so, i should be glad i only need it this year - when i am 50.

it's a new phase in life. been rather reflective lately and i did come to the conclusion that i have eased into the full blown middle aged phase of my life faster than i had realized. well, nothing to be sad nor worried about. aging is a part of life. but i must say, with some level of regret that i had not fully lived my life in my 30s when i was there. i was too consumed by the rat race and at the same time preoccupied with my own sexual identity. so admittedly, when i look at those people in their 20s/30s now and the opportunities they have, i do envy them to a certain extend. then again, that must be the case, we always make things better for our next generation. i must look forward and live my life as much as i can now, lest i look back in future and start to regret again.

heh...