mum this week

i wanted to capture a couple of events this week about mum's condition.

i attended a course of tuesday and wednesday and was able to return home early. mum of cos was surprised by my early return but took it in stride. i got back from work on thursday as per my usual work day at about 6pm and mum gave me a weird look. i didn't say anything except to take a seat beside her as i accompanied her to watch her evening tv serial. the maid was busy cleaning some stuff in the kitchen. and then mum suddenly turned to me and with very suspicious look, told me in a very low-toned voice (in hokkien) - that fucking cunt is mixing with bad people... i know, and she's fucking evil, and does a lot of bad things behind my back... ok, that's a clear sign of paranoia to me. i simply responded by asking why she said so... and she replied - i saw her mixing with bad people, this person called pei lian. i tell you, she's up to no good.... not wanting to alarm her or to aggravate her paranoia, i simply told her that everything is ok as long as she does her work and that we can keep an eye on her. the evening went by rather well once we got out of the house to do some shopping.

and on friday (yesterday) at 5.45pm, as i was walking back from office, i got a called from mum. once i answered, her voice rang through - where are you? you came back earlier and left again! i was kinda taken aback... since when did i come home earlier, i thought. i knew straightaway that her delusion has struck. i simply told her that i was on my way home and that i would be home soon. once i arrived, i immediately sat beside her and spoke with her. i explained to her that i was at work whole day and that i didn't return home. she stared at me and retorted - no, you were back home. somebody saw you and told me! i didn't pursue further. there's no point trying to correct someone who suffers from delusion. i simply told her that that someone could have seen the wrong person. once again, the evening went rather well and she was cheerful when i brought her out shopping.

looking at the two incidents, it came clear that they were paranoia and delusional. and that both occurred at around the same time - 4-6pm - typical sundowning syndrome. 

sighs.