I really dunno anymore...
Loving someone can be so painfully difficult when on one hand you want contentment, and on the other hand, you are emotionally and sexually so unfulfillied. You want intimacy, you want connection, you want some quality time, but all he wants is to do his work.
6 years, 6 years of repeated excuses to `dedicate' his time to his work - at work, at home, during weekday nights, during weekends, during all the time. All because he deems it necessary to prove himself. You call it obsession, he calls it passion. Passion? Obsession? Two sides of a same coin? At your expense. Fair?
You both are seen as partners by friends. His friends would comment how envious they are of you two for sustaining such a long and `loving relationship', but in reality, you really do not know his friends well and he absolutely refuses to even attempt to know your friends. Far as you are concerned, you are treated more like a father, a brother, a mother or for that matter, a maid. And he continues to do his work.
And amidst all these, you chose to look on the bright side. You do not want to break up cos you are just too tired to start the whole process of courtship anymore. Yet, amidst all these emotional torture, you still choose to live with him... is this love? or just plain stupidity?
I can't see the line anymore...
Are teachers all like this?
Loving someone can be so painfully difficult when on one hand you want contentment, and on the other hand, you are emotionally and sexually so unfulfillied. You want intimacy, you want connection, you want some quality time, but all he wants is to do his work.
6 years, 6 years of repeated excuses to `dedicate' his time to his work - at work, at home, during weekday nights, during weekends, during all the time. All because he deems it necessary to prove himself. You call it obsession, he calls it passion. Passion? Obsession? Two sides of a same coin? At your expense. Fair?
You both are seen as partners by friends. His friends would comment how envious they are of you two for sustaining such a long and `loving relationship', but in reality, you really do not know his friends well and he absolutely refuses to even attempt to know your friends. Far as you are concerned, you are treated more like a father, a brother, a mother or for that matter, a maid. And he continues to do his work.
And amidst all these, you chose to look on the bright side. You do not want to break up cos you are just too tired to start the whole process of courtship anymore. Yet, amidst all these emotional torture, you still choose to live with him... is this love? or just plain stupidity?
I can't see the line anymore...
Are teachers all like this?
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