i have a weird my dog...

i have a weird dog... she's afraid of cats, chases houseflies and mosquitos so that she can gulp them down, afraid of cockcroaches, and yesterday, she killed a mynah that came into the house to eat her food in her dog bowl... !!!

all about health...

Hv always led a v healthy lifestyle and ate healthily, no junk food, no soft drinks, moderate red meat, exercise 4-5 times weekly etc. but my recent few years have seen numerous spares parts problems growing by the days. first it was back ache, then, neck aches, then knees and ankle worn out (from too much running and sports), and the latest, suspected asthma (or was it due to haze?) and extremely high cholesterol! whew! considering i have always been careful abt my diet, now i have to cut of all eggs, egg-based products, read meat, oily stuff almost completely! and to think that I have constantly kept all these stuff to a moderate level! genetics?

hmmm...

young n old

interesting how one is so turned on by older guys when young n when one grows older, he is in turn so turned on by younger guys... a case of yearning for a sense of security n maturity when one does not hv them n youth when one lose it?

my blog

this is a post-dated post and it is more than 7 years late! i decide to add this post after realizing that there is no proper start to this blog and thought it would be nice if there is. after all, there is always something special about firsts right? well, i started my reflections in fridae. over time, the number of posts increased and my friend boon suggested i should consider capturing my reflections in a proper blog instead. and that was how everything started.

and so, i started searching the web for a blog engine that i am comfortable with and decided i would use blogger. as for the title, i had named it "being happy". it was later changed to "be happy" when someone commented about it. the comment was something to the effect that my posts were largely unhappy ones and therefore the title "being happy" was so inappropriate. i reflected on it and kinda agree with this person and decided to change to to "be happy", a title that perhaps reflects the state i wanna be rather than the state i am. happiness is a journey and the title shall reflect it as such, i concluded.

as to why "happy". this an important word cos it reflected the emotional state i want to be. "happy" is a simple 5-letter word. yet, this word carries a very profound meaning. cos to be truly happy, one needs to have one's material needs and expectations met. and personally to me, as a gay person who had spend the longest time in the closet trying to reconcile myself with my sexuality, happiness also meant i must first accept myself. only with self-acceptance can one learn to love oneself, be fair to oneself, reward oneself when it is due, punish oneself when standards are not met, strive harder when expectations are not met, and so on... when one can do all these, one can be considered to truly love oneself. only with this can one start to love others. otherwise, the love would not be authentic. it would merely be based on a lot of expectations. and that would not be true love, that would be nothing but a lot of insecurities.

so... before this intro gets too long... yup, this blog started as a way for me to pen my thoughts and my experiences. and through time, it has also become a medium for me to make friends and exchange views. it has been 7-over years and i do hope to continue blogging as least for the foreseeable future.

:-)